Hello, hivers all over the world... I wish you much happiness.

What's your November story so far?
I've been through a lot and some of it has left me shaken. We never know, do we, what life will be like in the future?

I'm not complaining that this November I actually ended up in an online consultation session with a psychiatrist. I belong to the category of people with good stress release media and coping mechanisms before. However, sometimes when trauma after trauma that gets triggered on a large scale at once, can suddenly appear together and attack the owner of the traumatised body. That's what happened to me since early November.

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How does one become Mixed Anxiety and Depressive Disorder (MADD)?

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This is just a preliminary diagnosis from the psychiatrist I saw. The provisional note for me is mixed anxiety and depressive. Why is it a mixture? Because, when answering questionnaires or debriefings, patients tend to have symptoms that are half anxiety and half depression. Actually, MADD is not that dangerous as it does not lead to depression or major anxiety. So, if treated and treated properly, the symptoms of MADD can be reduced or disappear.

After about an hour's consultation, the psychiatrist prescribed three types of medication that I had to take: anti-anxiety medication, antidepressant medication, and another medication to help me fall asleep and get quality rest.

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Not only medicine, the doctor also advised me to do my usual coping mechanisms, such as: exercise, meditation, and so on. (I also used to draw, write fiction and poetry, and journal as my coping mechanism).

In the meantime, of course, I have to finish the medicine first before going to the next session.

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The stigma of going to a psychiatrist is still bad, like why?

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I've long been out of touch with the stigma surrounding people who go to psychiatrists. Instead, for me, they are the ones who are aware of what's going on with themselves, because supposedly, only ourselves are the first to know about ‘What's wrong with me?’ etc.

In the first half of this year, I felt a feeling of guilt for no reason. It was a feeling of guilt that I didn't know where the root of it was, and then, it kept piling up, until it made me feel uncomfortable and could affect my daily life. From here, I started to be careful with my thoughts. I started to re-examine ‘What is going on with me?’. the feeling comes when we realise that there is a limit to reasonable and unreasonable.

I don't feel like I'm a mentally ill person just because I've been to a psychiatrist once or twice, instead, I feel more healthy because I know what to do.

So, I also hope that whoever you feel needs help from psychology or other professionals, please do so! Love yourself, treat yourself, and let's be happy in the future. Cheers!

Thank you for reading what I wrote this afternoon. May all beings in the universe be happy, aameen.

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