What's the emotion that you are holding onto the most?

I am so confused about what should be the title of this post. Well, let's just start the post I might get an idea. I have been battling with the emotional war. One moment I decide I am no longer into it but the other moment I just start thinking about it. Emotions are meant to be released but I've just figured when we try to trap emotions, emotions backfire and you end up being trapped by emotions. Too many emotions in this post :P XD

Yesterday I had a very vivid conversation with my father about my marriage topic which is going on these days, unfortunately :(. I told him my heart is not accepting this new relationship. I tried, it is not that I am not trying I am actually trying and I actually tried to talk to that person 3 to 4 times. But I just listen to him quietly and I don't say anything and at that moment all I want to do make an excuse and cut the phone. I don't know how people talk for hour n hour on phone I just can't.

I receive plenty of messages on WhatsApp which I don't even bother to open and check. That person is trying to show affection but he just doesn't know I am not interested at all. I can't forget my emotions while performing my action and I know my action is hurting someone. clearly, I am portraiting my image as a rude person but I am helpless. All this conversation I had with my father. And his reply was it is just time being and you will be very happy in your life just accept what we decided for you.

Of course, I can't tell him that I have no control over my emotions. Why life is so hard? why we can't have that thing in our life we want the most?

I like this quote but that's not ok for me :)

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