We failed again, when we will get pregnant? WE 158

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Many say having a kid completes the family, and one of the reasons to strengthen the relationship the love, bond of a couple. It was a great blessing that not all are lucky to have.

Since I was young, I have been sure that I will have my own family and kids when the time comes. Though I grew up seeing my parents struggling financially, that doesn't influence my thoughts. What I only had in my mind was not to engage in teenage pregnancy and, most importantly, not to bring a child into this world if she would only experience my life as a kid. That is why I worked hard to have a degree, a decent job, and be smart enough to be financially capable of raising a child.

I even planned what age to get married and what age I would have a kid, as that's the perfect time to be ready emotionally, physically, and financially.

The year 2018, that was five years since I got married. I was twenty-eight and at the right time based on my goal. In my mind, I was thinking; before I reached thirty, we were already a family!

The husband decided not to apply back to work as we wanted to get pregnant first. We both love kids, and having our own has been our dream, our greatest goal. Five months had passed; I got impatient as nothing good happened. I got frustrated and sad every month after knowing it was negative; I got my monthly period.

We consulted an OB-gyne, and I still remember how the Doctor laughed, saying I was impatient. Still, as I wanted to assure you, we undergo a series of tests, ultrasound, and ahhh; it hurts! The results showed no problem; both of us were capable. What we need is just perfect timing.

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I still had the copy of my first ultrasound,

So I held into that until two years passed, and the husband got a contract and returned to Taiwan to work. We said I would visit him to pursue our goal, and he could have a vacation yearly anyway. Taiwan was only a few hours away from the Philippines. Yet, who would have thought the pandemic would happen and forbid us from seeing each other for three long years?
Knowing our plan A wasn't feasible, we focused on plan B, which was building our dream house. Maybe, we aren't yet blessed with a baby as HE wanted us to have a home first where we would raise our family. Glad to say we made it. The feeling that everything was ready and what was lacking was a Baby.

This year, we planned his vacation, the month the days. I even consulted again with my OB-gyne and underwent an ultrasound to ensure I was healthy. I took some vitamins and ate healthy foods to get my body ready.

Finally, when the husband arrived, that was one of the best days of the past years.

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If you read my previous blogs, all you can read are all the places we visited throughout his stay. Enjoy the day, create beautiful memories, and work out for our ultimate goal.

I was hopeful this time, and I even filed a long week of absence as per advice from my Doctor. I made all her suggestions and followed her instructions. My workmates were all supportive and didn't even bother me. On the first day I was delayed, I took a pregnancy test. While waiting, I silently prayed it would turn positive, but the moment I opened my eyes, I saw this.

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Yes, it was NEGATIVE; I wasn't pregnant! Do I need to say what I felt? Frustrated, upset, why asking why it was so unfair? We did try our best, but then again, we failed.😰

I even readied myself to stay at home, take care of our future child leave my work even though I am used to working, but then nothing!

The past weeks were not good, enduring the sadness caused by it, not to mention the husband was back at work. My emotions aren't stable as, from to time, I feel frustrated, resulting in me being grumpy. So, I choose to avoid having conversations with anyone.

However, I decided a few days ago to keep trying. We still have plenty of time, so that we will see him in Taiwan in the next few months. We might get lucky this time.

Hello Hivers! Happy weekend and this is my entry in @galenkp #Weekend-Engagement 158. If you wanted to join, check it here.

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I really see in your blogs te that you really love kids, like your nephews always visit you when you're at home.

Try and try lang po. That time will come.

Yiee Taiwan! 😍 Hopefully you can post blogs on your trip. 😊

!PIZZA

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Try Ng try till you succeed!
Hehe, hoping this year or 1st quarter next year

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Maybe this is not just the right time, I know it will come sa di inaasahang pagkakataon so just hope and look forward to it. Marami pa kayong time. Hope soon dumating na sya so that you'll both be happy na. And wag ka din magpa stress coz of that. Hoping na ma eshare mo naman ang pagiging mother soonest. Fightuuu!

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Hehe, feeling ko magpaparty ako kapag nabuntis .
Sana nga dumating na soon!

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God will give and bless it to the both of you at the right time po. Maybe hindi pa po siguro ngayon but don't worry dadating at dadating din po talaga yang pinapangarap nyo, just trust gods timing po.

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Thank you! And praying he will grant our heart desires next time

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You must really love kids so much. And this love is enough to bring kids to you. The next time is definitely going to be a charm; I'm positive.

Taiwan is also a very nice location for a baby ✨

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Oh yes, I love babies, I love kids that is why it frustrates me not having my own .

Thanks, I am hoping to achieve it in the next few years.

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I wish you luck on this endeavor ❣️

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Oh, dear! Don't worry too much.
Sometimes you have to try for long to achieve your goal, take it that way.
I totally can understand your frustrations. Focus on your mental health and then every other thing.
Life will happen, keep patience.
I pray for you.

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Thank you so much! I am trying my best not to think more about it.

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Maybe it's not your time yet sis...some needs enough rest to get pregnant.. I know someone who gave birth at a late age..but at least they made it.. So don't lose hope.. Things will come as planned by Him... For sure, you'll become a good mother..

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Thanks sis, baka nga not yet the perfect time for us

!PIZZA

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Awww. Don't give up until you're still fertile, Ate. Timing, huh? Maybe, you should use the calendar method, wherein you can predict your period, safe days, and the days of ovulation where there are higher chances of pregnancy. Also, continue being healthy. I'll pray for you po.

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Hehe we did use that and even followed what temhe OB said 😬. Kaso, still unlucky 🤣

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Thank you @hivebuzz!

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That's great @lhes! We're impressed with your progress on Hive! Keep going and reach your new target!

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Happy to see your husband. There is positivity in him. I hope you will get what you want from God. Ameen

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Thank you.
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Keep trying Lhes! Don’t give up! If it’s His will, it will come.
Probably a lesson that whatever our plans are for our future, sometimes it won’t happen. His plans are the best. So let’s just wait and of course be hopeful that someday that fruit will come. ☺️

And yahoooo baka sa Taiwan nga magbunga o dba! 😅

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Oh yes, keep trying and I am holding into that thought na kung ibibigay, ibibigay, just couldn't help but to feel frustrated at times.
Kaya madalas, feel ko mapag-isa at baka mag attitude lng ako sa kausap ko 🤣

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hahahaa okay lang yan lhes, kesa naman yung kasama mo will feel bad because of your pagtataray dba
pero ayown don’t lose hope! just keep tryign and trying! lavarn!

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