It's my life...

I am a protagonist, not a spectator.

Look, self-esteem is a journey, not a destination. However, we often feel that we are not enough to exercise the fact of being ourselves. And we live life behind the scenes, running away even from our own reflection.

Has it happened to them? Me too. 😬

In our lives, we often come across topics that we prefer to avoid. Among them, family secrets and wounds that can embarrass us. However, talking about what no one wants to talk about is essential in order to heal.

A long time ago my self-esteem was really nothing and I had a lot of personal problems linked to my lack of self-love. You're happy about something and suddenly that slump comes, I don't know yet what triggers it but it's there ..., then you think one day that it's no more and it's not like that. I no longer allow myself to fall into bed and regret that I didn't achieve anything, although sometimes this nostalgia takes my breath away.

This December, when Christmas is approaching, for example: December nostalgia weighs more than any suitcase, it is there, silent but constant.

You change your place, you reinvent your life, but she follows me, with this phrase "I would have stayed" that resonates in my mind, in my soul, with that memory X that hurts a little more than I would like to admit.

Fortunately I have worked a lot on my self-esteem so that I don't have to carry everything, although I am very clear that "letting go is not forgetting". It is to give space to what is coming, to the life that I deserve to live here and now.

For years, I have been going to therapy learning to discover my true value. That's why I know that low self-esteem, although it may seem like a labyrinth, with the right tools, really has a way out, and in this way I understood, and assumed my place in the world.

Now...

I don't stay there, being a spectator of my life! I live it with everything. And above all things, I am myself, with my labyrinths, crossroads and flat roads, what we all know as lights and shadows, human.

I don't stay watching like elves hahah, they make disasters in my life purpose 😂😅... My grandchildren don't understand this mess (cover).

I deserve to build my home anywhere, without the memories of the past preventing me from living my present.

The year is almost over and like every new year's eve I tell myself this: "It's time to stop surviving carrying yesterday's weight, I start to let go of what prevents me from moving forward. My new life is waiting for me, today.

The respect for myself is much greater than my desire to be loved. Building a solid self-esteem is essential, and that inner work is what m will allow to live from authenticity.

There are always ways to feel better and move forward. I let go and today I feel calm, the month of November was key.!!!

Janitze 🦋