MENTAL STRESS || HOW IT ALMOST WRECKED ME!

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Hello, beautiful people of Emotions & Feelings community. Hope I met you all well. Here is my entry for this months theme: Stress.

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Stress is typically a state of tension, either emotionally or physically. It is a body's response to a demand or challenge. Any situation or idea that causes you to feel irritated, indignant, or anxious might cause stress.

The psychological experiences of frustration and anxiety that result from mental stress on its own come from how events in one's internal or external surroundings are perceived.

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You will never know how strong you are until you are mentally down. I’ve been there and I know how it feels. I’m a very introverted person and any chance I had to go out or relate with people, I made sure not to cross my boundaries to avoid going through any form of stress that will stress the hell out of me.

My mental health has been affected quite a number of times because of stress, which has left me in various states of discomfort, bewilderment, worry, and other things, in relationships, at work, or with friends.

Looking back on my relationships with my housemates (same sex we shared the same room together) how they began, how they developed, and how they ultimately ended, led me to the realization that my happiness and mental health should come before anything else. I felt hurt, betrayed, and frustrated.

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Growing up, I’ve always been that indoor gangster who is so much interested and enjoyed her own company. I’ve never shared a room with a stranger before not until I was admitted in higher institution. That was where the struggle of being mentally unstable started.

I was verbally and emotionally abused; for not trying to fit in to their lifestyle, social life and their wayward lifestyle. You wouldn’t blame me right?, I wasn’t used to all of those. I will be sharing my experience with the last roommate I had.

She was something else entirely, from faking her personality, to being a liar, and then, a petty thief (all these was unknown to me from onset)... Oh God! I was so disappointed when I got to know all of these. Also, she was used to hosting a lot of friends (that alone freaks me out) without my consent.

Many times, I tried to act all okay, I apologized even when I was not wrong just for peace to prevail, I chooses to remain who I am but it turns out that no matter what I tried doing is going to make things work out well between us. I hates keeping malice with someone I share a room with but it was just like that was what pleasures this girl the most and was bent on making me look like a wicked person.

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Looking back to the times I stayed up late at night crying and questioning myself thinking I was the problem. I know I wasn’t perfect tho, but I do make sure I give my best to people around me. I was loosing it at that time, at every opportunity she gets, she’ll always ridicule me through her words and actions.

The entire relationship made me almost lost my self esteem, depressed, lonely and worthless all in the name of having a roomie. The truth of who she really was, was brought into limelight from the sources she has spoilt me, which she couldn’t deny after all.

I made my decision of not having a roomie anymore due to the stress I’ve gone through in time past and I’m keeping to that now. I’m living fine alone now.

I wasn't just stressed out because of the individuals I lived with; it also happened at my place work. Recently, I quit my job because I couldn't stand my employer anymore. He often complains about the duties he gave us to complete (my colleagues and I) and will also abuse us verbally, questioning my competency.

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He just had a vague understanding of what I do (hair styling), he couldn't execute it, but he constantly points out one error after another to the point where I usually fidgets when he's around and I'm about to provide my service to a client. Mistakes always happen to me anytime I work under much tension and also with a questioning mindset making me look like I’m not good enough.

What made me loose it all up was when he cursed me and I had to wept like I’ve never done before, I was down in spirit that the joy of leaving home every morning to do what I love doing the most wasn’t there anymore. I lost concentration, started having serious headaches due to lack of sleep. There and then, I realized that I needed a break to be mentally stable again. The stress was so tensed for me.

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Now this was how I managed to stay sane when mentally stressed;

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• I never let their negative words get into me really much. Though, I felt bad at first but I asserted myself with positive words. At least, I should be in control of what I allow into my life.

• I gave myself break from all those stress just to get myself back into order by breaking every ties that bonded us together. I couldn’t afford to patch things up anymore at the detriment of my mental health.

• I made sure to get enough sound sleep and relax well avoiding all other stress. I needed it at that time.

• I connected with people that gives me positive vibes, who sees the best in me, which makes me freed myself and laughed more.

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In Conclusion;

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We can’t totally run away from stress but we can control the way we allow it affects us. No one has the right to make us feel less of ourselves. Do what is best for you and place your mental health and happiness over all. Moreover, If it is getting beyond your control, it is advisable to see a therapist

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Thank you for taking out time to read me. I appreciate it. Gracias🙏🏽😘

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