^{What were you thinking Zainab? That Femi loved you way too much that he couldn't do without you? Were you thinking his world revolves around you? And that it was simply impossible to love another or move on to the next person that accorded him some respect?
Tell yourself the truth Zainab, be honest for once, you never really loved Femi, you only used him to your advantage, you enjoyed the attention the poor man was showering on you so you couldn't say no to him or confront him about Paul, the guy you actually fell in love with who's attention you were dying to get.
If you ask me, you don't deserve Femi and I am glad he finally realised your games and went after who was worth his time, attention and money.}

^{I may be your best friend but no I will tell you what is right from what is wrong and Yes, you are wrong for Femi. There hasn't ever been a time you treated him like a human, let alone a man you claimed you loved.
And sadly he ignored all of your disgusting attitude and professed love to you still.
Maybe it's high time you learned your lessons, it's high time you treated men with some respect, you aren't getting any younger neither is this character of yours making any positive progress.
Zainab, for goodness sake, change for good, change and don't frustrate the next guy that would walk right into your life, as for Femi, you lost him, yes you lost a good man to your distasteful attitude.}

These words kept playing on my mind as I read through Femi's last words to me before the breakup, I remembered everything my best friend Sara said to me 2 weeks after Femi broke up with me. At first, I almost cursed her thinking she didn't love me or was simply just jealous of all the privileges I was getting and the fact that Femi was spending way too much and unnecessarily on me.
Little did I know that my best friend saw through me more than I did myself. And that she was just trying to help and allow me to think through her telling me everything she had to tell me that day.
I wasn't in communication with my friend until the night when I decided to read Femi's words to me again, I remembered everything my friend Sara said to me too and at that point, I blamed myself I'm for the way everything worked out or turned out in the end.
I already lost Femi to another girl, so I thought I wasn't ready to lose another important person to me, Sara.
I had earlier cut all ties with her because of my anger and all the insults I rained down on her.
I felt awful after realizing my mistakes, and hoped Sara would find a place in her heart to forgive me because I meant no harm, I was only hurt as to the things she said to me which were actually true.
I did everything humanly possible to get back my friend as I wasn't ready to lose another significant person to me.

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𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫

^{~ 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐖𝐚𝐤𝐲! 𝐀 𝐦𝐮𝐥𝐭𝐢-𝐭𝐚𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐨𝐩𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐬 𝐳𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐭 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐟𝐟𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐭 𝐡𝐞𝐫. 𝐀 𝐠𝐢𝐫𝐥 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐢𝐬 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐬𝐞𝐥𝐟-𝐠𝐫𝐨𝐰𝐭𝐡 𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐝𝐝𝐬.
𝐈 𝐛𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐞𝐯𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐞𝐱𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐛𝐲 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐚 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞, 𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐟𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐥𝐲 𝐩𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐦𝐲 𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 "𝐀𝐛𝐮𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐧𝐭 𝐆𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞".
𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐦𝐲 𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐚𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐮𝐧𝐢𝐪𝐮𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐢𝐧 𝐚 𝐝𝐲𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐜 𝐰𝐚𝐲
𝐇𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐨𝐜𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐇𝐎𝐌𝐄 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐒𝐏𝐀𝐂𝐄 ~}

              4 January 2024
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