Losing My Perspective in Life

Another new week we have again @asean.hive community and the situation we have is not getting better, it even got worse. After Ria overcomes her vomiting due to cold stomach pain my 14 year old son is now the victim of this flood. Aside from suffering from the athlete's foot he suddenly vomited, I gave him the same medicine Ria drink. But now at exactly 3 a.m in the morning Philippines standard time he woke me up even though I just started sleeping at 2. And said mom I have a fever.

All was sleeping so I went down to find him a medicine. Since 2024 started my kids haven't gotten sick. They rarely get sick so if they suffer from flu, colds, cough, diarrhea it's surely worse than we even know.

I'm just thankful that I didn't need to bring them into the hospital because it's not needed. My home remedy is a good treatment, but as the years went by aside from suffering in bed I felt like having a trauma. Remembering last year when me and my kids had all flu at the same time, I asked for medicine from my neighbors. And they said; it looks like you're husband didn't care about you at all. I'm speechless and at the same time I thought that he was a bit right. His kind and somehow a good provider but when comes to money he has a different character.

If weren't for my kids I already loose hope. I want to ran away and go home. If you're on my situation how would you feel? You want your kids to feel better but all I can is to seek to others. Tomorrow is our second week in my in-laws House, we were supposed to go home but my sister in law stopped us because of the continues high tide for 3 days. The flood level was like the first day we evacuated in my in-laws house.

But everyday we visit our house we regret that we didn't go home. It's more comfortable to be soaked in flood rather than to feel so down all the time. The worst is I don't have money to buy my son what he wanted to drink. The Gatorade was from my uncle I texted him even his far away and told him my son's situation. I don't want to asked anything here because they thought that I have money. My husband only left me 200 php and gave her mother 1000 php. He also bought food and stuff.