Hardest Life

Someone asked me, are you a struggler? I didn't feel the need to see him, whatever. I just answered, I'm a struggler; I look back at my past. I try to face the mistakes of the past and every obstacle. I find myself in a place of my choice, where I have always wanted to be. I always wanted to give myself a place of trust from all the accidents in life. There are two paths in front of my house.

There are two types of signs on both sides of the road. A track reminds me of my grandfather. He was a warrior, a hero and a shining star. That path reminded me of him. Can you guess what the other way was? Another path next to it would show signs of failure.

Choosing that path will lead me to failure. I have faced both paths in this short life. Because I came to a stop, you can now imagine how I marked the two paths in two ways. Let's go back two months. In my new life, I took both paths. I walk in both directions very carefully. I did not know where the destination was. The first path was to make my life beautiful, I was not afraid of the heavenly sky then, but I could not find satisfaction. I chose another one. That path was completely damaged. I saw a massive mountain in front of me. I try to climb that mountain, but I repeatedly fail. All my hopes are shattered.

My heart began to break. I could not find the strength to stand up then. Back home that day, I told my mother about that path. I told her I tried to be as good as I could. But every time I stand at a crossroads, I fail. I go to the corner of that road and look for a new road. My mother looked at me and smiled. My mother just said one thing, stop looking for new roads. She said you would fail at every turn; it is your success to overcome it. New paths will never bring success.

That day I felt heavenly joy at home.‌ My mother is my world. I can never find the light of the world without her. She filled my new life with excitement. She looked into my eyes and said, I can see how much you are struggling with life and how you are being rejected. But the rejection was able to take itself. It is difficult but not impossible. And keep in mind that hard work is not possible overnight. It's just a constant climb. I try to accept my mother's words. Although at the time, I was sad about my own life. I try to overcome all the strange things in life.

For example, I will never be good, I will never win any competition, I will never be recognized in life, I will never be able to fulfil my dreams, and I will never be a good person. I am constantly fighting with this inner monster. It fights with me like the devil inside. But then comes an enlightened day. I am slowly gaining recognition for my many works. I continue to be satisfied with myself. The monster inside me was gradually weakening. I began to feel that defeat was a lie. I found my way to success by destroying many turning points. The journey was not easy but not too painful because this path showed me success. She taught me how to work hard.