A Total Reflect.

Everyone got a story to share and am no exception. Reading other's entries, in my head, it all feels like a round table setting where an apple is being passed around to the next person about to talk. Honestly, am moved by the few posts I read and am thankful it's now just a story.

My change began in December 2022. A period when myself and entire family were living with another family after we were given a short quit notice from our rented apartment because we couldn't fulfit the bills, this happened in early January 2021. So yeah, it was already one year plus at the time of December.
This time I believe is a festive season in most parts of the world and also the period where clothes and shoes move the market the most (a special occurrence in my country during the holidays).

The daughter of the woman who helped accommodate my family and I asked me to come to help her out in her shop since she sells kids wears and because of the season I agreed. Long story short, I didn't just ended up being her sales girl for the time, I was also subjected to packing her poo to flush under the bridge, fending for her kids which I consider proper and cleaning her house. On the 31st of December of that same year, I arrived home at past 11:00 pm after surviving the roughness of the road. It was one of the most stressful and saddest moments of my life but I couldn't complain since we were giving a roof over our heads.

Fast forward to this year early January, I crossed my mind to leave the house and take full responsibility for myself first.My family’s comfort is one of my major priorities, especially with my younger ones and there was little to what i could do at being in one spot. While leaving, I knew my immediate younger brother would be the most affected since he would have to take up the workload which at a point made me question my decisions especially the times he calls and cries over the phone, it's a disadvantage on one side but also a step to a positive light.

Being accountable and still responsible is one achievement am proud to say, it was almost impossible leaving the four walls of the house but am in all way around thankful for the journey so far. I'm not how I was when I moved out of the house in January and the change is also reflected in the lives of my loved ones back home.
We might not have it all right now with other expenses on the ground and these might be a little or no less of an achievement to some others but the baby steps are everything and the great change is evident while giving the reassuring hope for reaching the light at the end of the tunnel.