I am living in September even it's October| Wednesday Walk

It's month of October but i am still living in September as these all pictures are from last day of September.
I was sitting in the room. Bored and sluggish, i was scrolling through laptop. My room mates wished to go out for an evening walk.

It was the evening time. My mood was craving to walk. It was evening. I went out with my room mates. Air playing on my cheeks. It feels like winter is coming but it was actually October which was coming.

October came with spooky air. Are you feeling it? Today, it's again evening and i will go out with my friends to have dinner.

Dear Diary, the atmosphere is very lovely, cool and embarrassing these days but there is a full storm of thoughts in my mind. That storm disturbs me a lot. My room mates, friends and people of acquaintance assume that i am a jolly person. They think of me as a vibrant personality who is always happy and gets easily blend in all sort of situations. I agree but many times, i have down moments.

Here everyone is living with pretentious face and pretentious things. I have learned that it's the easiest way to live the life. It sometimes hurt. I deal other people as a genuine person and i treat them nicely but they don't. Not all of them are bad but few are!

I mentioned a word "Storm of Thoughts". These thoughts are all related to my future. These future thoughts are leaving a deep mark on my present days.

I am concerned about my future. In this university, i just have two semesters left. This degree is more like living in illusion. Now, reality is knocking very hard on the life's door. I am hearing that!

These hills are source of relief and give sense of escape from the realities. Believe me, in university, i feel that everything of my life exist in these hills and beyond these hills- there is nothing.

It's delusion and it will waste my potential. I have aims/goals and determination in my life. If i will not open my eye on realities then things will be messed up in my life.

Holding all these delusional, illusional and realistic thoughts in my mind, i am walking in the park of life. This park is often harsh, difficult, pleasant, absurd and beautiful.

How easily people say.... Let it go.... But, is it simple and easy to let things go? It's our feelings which are clingy, sticky and attached. It's our heart which finds solace and relief in old worn out things.

It's getting night and we went to dinner. These thoughts never stop.

See you next 🌺

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