What if I fail?

Earlier this year, when I introduced myself on Hive, I remember I wrote that “I am a budding analyst” which was very true. However, one thing I didn’t write was how long I had been in the budding stage.

My journey to the world of analytics started officially in September, 2023 when I got an acceptance email from a free data analytics training that I had applied to, and crazy is that the class would start just three days after the email was received, and the location was very far from where I stayed.

It was a crazy three days looking for who to accommodate me for the next three months because I apparently did not have the money to rent a place for that period as I had just rented an apartment, and the expenses was crazy. Eventually, I found a place, and the journey started.

The journey to becoming is supposed to be smooth sailing, however, I didn’t get the memo that the smooth sail is not something I should look forward to.

I enjoyed the three months training, because honestly prior to that time, I didn’t know where to start from. I was excited to have a headway now and was going to return home, and dive right into the sea of analytics. Get projects, build my portfolio, and then start job hunting, but something happened.

As soon as I returned home to my rented apartment, a lot of distracting challenges started showing face, and the most draining one was my laptop that kept developing issues. What was I supposed to do in analytics without a working laptop?

I sourced for jobs with my other skills including doing voiceovers, offering story writing services, content writing, and mobile video editing to gather money so I could fix my laptop every time it developed issues.

Let me narrate exactly how it went.

I was working on my laptop, and it suddenly would go off. I placed my two hands on my head and screamed, “Not again!”, then I stand up from my white plastic chair to sit on the floor with my elbows resting on my thighs, and my face buried in my palms. Then, I tried to breathe so I wouldn’t suffocate from the troubles, and before I knew it, my eyes were red with tears already.

Every time my laptop developed a fault that I know would cost me a lot, I go through the process of crying and picking myself up once again to get the problems resolved. However, one thing I didn’t do was think of giving up.

I just want to be a badass data girl, and the journey even though I knew wouldn’t be easy, I didn’t know it would be so rough for me.

I planned to share the process of my journey into the world of analytics, however, I realized that I couldn’t because I kept starting with Excel over and again when I could’ve moved deeply into SQL, visualizations, and python, but I was stuck. Still, I didn’t mind.

“What if I fail” is just one of the numerous questions I asked myself every time I had issues distracting me from learning. Not small issues, but really huge ones that would mentally, physically, emotionally, and financially drain me, but there’s a spirit of determination and persistence that keeps telling me, “What if you don’t?”

Now, this question is for you too. What if you don’t fail? Just what if all those things you are going through is just a phase that’ll make your story sweeter to tell? See, a lot of people don’t share their failure stories because the world only cares about the success. However, you should know that even the most talented people struggle sometimes, but they don’t give up.

So, what if you don’t give up? It means that your dreams mean so much to you and you are ready to go through whatever to make sure you live it. If that tiny voice in your head is whispering to you that “what if you fail?”, ask in return that “What if I don’t?”.

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