It's been hard to love you
It was harder to give up all those desires.
It was harder to make myself believe that it would never happen.
It was harder to convince myself that it shouldn't happen.
Harder was to keep quiet and keep everything I felt.
But, what a deception. I hadn't really forgotten you.
But, what a deception. I really didn't stop wanting to hug you.
But, what a deception. I really didn't stop wanting to say I love you.
But, what a cheat. I never really gave up all those desires.
Now that you come in search of those desires, we can no longer be.
Now that you come in search of those desires, there are more obstacles than before.
Now that you come in search of those desires, there are more compelling reasons for it not to happen.
I still don't understand the reasons of destiny.
I still don't understand, if it was cowardly not to fight.
I still don't understand, if at that moment I should have fought.
I still don't understand why just now.
The only thing I can understand is that I don't want to fight for what I didn't fight for before.
The only thing I can understand is that it's not the same as before.
The only thing I can understand is that something inside has broken again.
Although I still don't understand why it repeats itself again.
I don't want to fight,
I don't want to have to fight for something that maybe doesn't correspond.
Maybe I'm a coward, for hiding again.
Maybe I'm a coward, for once again walking away.
Maybe I'm a coward, for not taking the risk.
Maybe I'm a coward, for falling in love with illusions.
Maybe I'm a coward, because today I'm giving up...
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This is a very lovely poem.
Most times love is painted as something so grand that doesn't involve pain and getting hurt but your poem is a reminder that love can be one sided and it can hurt too.
Hello, thank you very much,
I am very happy that this poem is to my liking and is as close as possible to the reality or the pain of a love that perhaps could have been and was not.
thank you for reading
You're welcome. 🤗
Your words capture the pain of unspoken love so beautifully. The struggle between wanting to express those feelings and the reality of stepping back resonates deeply. It’s so moving how you explore the conflict between hope and self-protection, especially when old feelings resurface. This piece is a powerful reflection on the complexity of love, loss, and the courage it sometimes takes to walk away. Thank you for sharing such an honest and relatable piece—it’s truly touching.
Hello!
I'm so glad that you liked it and above all, that its essence could capture you for a few moments and, I'm even more glad to know that you were able to identify the essence of this writing.
Thank you very much, really, reading them, encourages me to write again.
This was something I did to get through a moment when I was on the verge of madness due to work issues, and then listening to music, reflecting and thinking a couple of things, the need to write arose and I am very happy that you liked it.