Finding A Balance: Inner Peace vs Outward Peace.

Many times we exchange the word 'peace' with joy, happiness and gladness. Peace means being free from war, literally free from troubles, worry, anxiety and fear: a state of rest and freedom, so, it is so different from joy, happiness, gladness. Peace is one thing that should not be lost at any point in one's life, it's not debatable,it shouldn't be found missing. One crazy fact about peace is that it can't be faked, it doesn't work well in pretence because it won't last all. Peace is a knowing, a feeling and an assurance in the mind that is very keen making it impossible to pretend, because it is from the mind and the state of mind can't be faked.

Indoor or outdoor has its own unique features and advantages that can't be gotten from the other, one is almost exact opposite of the other one. I like both but I am more of an indoor person than outdoor because indoor fits my personality more. I feel sick anytime I try to fit in into being outdoor more than I can take. Being indoor, gives more room for privacy in almost every sense, I hardly get disturbed and I do freely whatever I want to do. I am right to say there is 100% or close to a 100% sanity of mind being indoor than being outside, I am not in any way close to danger or anything that would take away your peace. Somethings that make staying indoor possible for me is access to a smartphone, internet connection, earpiece or mp3 player, food/snacks or junks. If all these are available I can go for days without stepping out or only go out to nearby stores to buy what I need I go back inside

In my first year in the university, I got an hostel through my sister's friend, the hostel was off campus. My room was second floor. I just resumed school so I had more than enough foodstuffs with me. I legit didn't go out for 2 weeks to do anything. I was just in my room, all I do is sleep, pray, eat, see movies on my phone, watch videos online. It was easy to do because power supply was consistent and I attend virtual classes in first year because of Covid. That lifestyle was so cool to me because I don't know how to mingle quickly, I was bad at making friends and wasn't ready to work on that part of me. I scared two ladies the day I finally came out of that my room at night, they we're really scared because I opened my door and they didn't know someone has moved in.

For me, staying indoor is just so cool, I am not everywhere, not everyone knows me, people barely know about me. I just like that lifestyle, but one cannot always be like this, there are good things to do out there. I like some exciting outdoor activities as long as it won't be stressful. My number one is going out to new places during my leisure time, just to enjoy the moment. One of the best places I've always loved visiting is the beach, I was at the beach on the last day of last year and first day of this year. Seeing large group of people coming in and going out was kinda fun to me who was watching them at a distance.

I walked down the beach to a place where there was almost no one to enjoy the view of the water running into each other with the sound of the water and the cool breeze (that was me trying to be indoor in an open place😅). I stood up and walked down to where the crowd was as the sun was setting, I loved how the colorful sky was reflecting on the water. I didn't regret joining the crowd, I enjoyed swimming with the guys I met, they boosted my courage as I was able to swim deeper to where my feet could no longer touch the ground. I felt great being able to see new faces, play games, interact and laugh with strangers.

Past 8pm and I was already feeling like being alone again. I've enjoyed the liberty of staying outdoor and was craving staying indoor again. I got home and didn't step out until a day after. The issues of this life requires more than staying indoor or outdoor alone. Try and explore both, but don't push yourself.