Terrified moment and how I scaled through

Being terrified is something that is not new to everyone except the person is not an adult yet or probably the person doesn't value life. Life is sweet so nobody wants to leave despite the ups and downs inside the life.

I watched a video of one singer who was being tormented by his record label, for some months he didn't speak up until it got to a certain point where he realized that they actually wanted him dead so he spoke up on social media because he was terrified at that moment that he was going to die.

He said in the video he made, "I don't want to die" That was when people knew he was really serious about being tormented and that is how some people live their lives, they don't take things seriously until it gets to some certain point that they can't handle the situation.

There was one particular year that I was terrified that I was going to die because of sickness and debt, I still working in a factory then and all of a sudden I started having this serious body pain I didn't want it to pull me down so I bought some drugs based on a prescription from our factory clinic.

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I started using the drugs but it was as if the more I used those drugs the more the pain came out, I was confused so I went to the clinic again and the nurse there told me I needed to rest when I am on medication. I went straight to the shift manager to explain myself, the man was kind enough to have given me four days off the least a contract staff can get is two days.

I was at home for four days taking medication and resting, after the medication I resumed back to work because all the days I was off I didn't get paid so I couldn't stay too long at home.

I was okay for the first two days but on the third day, it was as if I never treated the pain at the rate it came again, this time I didn't want to give it any chance to stay in my body so I didn't take anything I was just working.

Sometimes it will reduce, while it will be much sometimes, but I didn't mind it. I was managing myself to work until one day I couldn't move my waist. I was able to get to work as usual and I worked for hours when it was time for my break, I went to the changing room to eat and relax for a few minutes but when the break was over, I couldn't stand up from the bench I was laying on.

It was then I realized that something was wrong somewhere. I was scared that I might have had one sickness that would kill me because the back pain was too much to the extent that I could hear my bones making a sound as if it was cracking when I tried moving.

A colleague of mine helped me up but still, I managed to work till closing time because if I didn't, I wouldn't get paid. The next day, I went straight to the pharmacy close by and I was told to buy some certain medicine, my sister took me for an X-ray some weeks later when she noticed I wasn't getting any better. The doctor told us that I shouldn't work for some time because the stress I was facing at work had affected my backbone.

The first thing that came to my mind was how will I survive if I didn't work. Who will pay for my school, house rent, and some other bills not to talk of feeding? That year I felt like everything I had been doing was not the right thing for me and I was terrified at some point when I couldn't fend for myself and the landlady wasn't not helping the matter the way she was knocking on my door for house rent every end of the month.

One thing about humans is that once we are still seeing a little thing we don't think about how life we look if we don't have that little thing again. When I wanted to resign at work I thought that after some days I would bounce back and then look for another work, but I was wrong because days turned to weeks and weeks turned to months and I was still in the same spot.

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Sometimes I prayed and cried because I was confused about how everything was crumbling right in front of me. But then my fiance and my elder sister were the ones who always helped me out during that time and until I got back on my feet.

Later, my back finally healed after some months and I couldn't wait before I jumped outside to look for work and that was when I got a hotel job. I was happy about the work even though the pay was not much but the fact that it sorted part of my problem made me happy, and gradually I was able to pay up all the house rent debts I owed while I was sick and every other bill was sorted as well and after that, I began to have rest of mind gradually.