You attract what you are

_{Photo by Дмитрий Хрусталев-Григорьев}

Ever since I was a kid, I've always been that quiet lad who always kept to himself, not because I always loved being alone (although I do sometimes), but because I wasn't the social type. At first it wasn't a problem, but then the older I got, the more I realized that living a life of loneliness was not the way to go.

I never knew it was so bad until I saw myself daydreaming about having friends who were wild, friends who loved to party and have mad fun. The reason for that was because I knew that although I wasn't the loud type, I can be real fun when I'm around those kind of people, especially in parties or in a fun gathering.

But my friends at the time were almost just like me, they weren't as reserved as I was but they weren't that loud either, but instead of crying about it, I decided to console myself with the fact that I could get the kind of friends I wanted when I eventually get to the university, afterall, all of the university movies I've seen involves people partying and having the best time of their lives.

Fast forward to few years later, I found myself in the university, all alone but ready to make cool crazy friends, but then just as usual, I got reminded that as humans, there are certain things that are above our control and one of those things are the kind of people we meet.

About a month in school and I soon found myself in the midst of two nerds. Instead of having my cool friends like I had always dreamed of, I stumbled on some challenges in my first year in school, one that demanded that I made friends with the smart guys in class or risk dropping out of school, so I obviously went for the former.

I had made friends with this two guys because I was finding some calculation courses real difficult and I knew I needed their help to pass those courses in other to progress to the next stage but somewhere along the line, I found out that these guys weren't just nerds, they were cool nerds with a very bright future ahead of them and as someone who was smart, I knew the best thing to do was to hang around them, so I did just that.

And although I don't regret that decision, it kinda ruined my plans of having wild friends and going for crazy parties every night, and also constantly dissapointing my parents. But at the end of the day, this whole experience just made me realize that you attract what you are. Good will always attract good, and bad will always attract bad.