New month, new growth

I woke up this morning with the usual happy new month messages from both family and friends, even people who only text me once every month on the first. But unlike every other month where I just reply their text and don't think anything of it, today's new month messages from these people had kinda left me some kind of way.

I guess finally getting to the ember month just reminded me that the year is quickly coming to an end and soon it will be 2025. So I decided to take a moment and look at my life, not the usual financial growth aspect but more about how far I've grown as a person.

And although I could see some significant changes in some aspect of my life, I'm still at zero when it comes to relating with my family, and by my family, I mean the elderly ones like my dad and his siblings. I and my siblings don't talk often but when we do, we bond so well so I have no problems when it comes to communicating with them.

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When it comes to my dad, I also have no problem communicating with him, just that he's always the one calling and I hardly call to check up on him, but when he does call, we talk like father and son would. Anyways, I had thought about it today and decided that this new month, I had to do better.

So I had immediately picked up my phone and called him. We spoke for some minutes before I ended the call and called my brother to speak to him too. Hopefully I keep at it and call him a lot more often, even if it's just to say hi, I'm sure it will make my dad happy.

When I finally get good at doing that, I will shift my attention to my aunties. They say save the best for last, but in this case, I will be saving the worse for last. My communication with my aunties has gotten so bad that even when they (two of them) had called me at separate times last week, I had ignored their calls and haven't called them back ever since.

And to think this is the first time in months that they're calling, probably to check up on me (or send me on errands), and I'm dodging their calls. It's going to be a crazy encounter when I eventually do get to see them face to face, maybe during the family gathering or something.

Hopefully before it gets to that time, I might have built a good communication system with them. Until then, I will have to focus on my dad and siblings.