Life Changes In A Blink!

I cannot ever forget the month of August for this year since it prompted me to reflect on some perspectives of life.

It is hard to believe but it all happened in a blink. For this reason, I started to express my current realizations about my experiences and think of how to take action.

The hospital has been a witness to my struggles. It all happened when I was rushed to the hospital many times. I remember back then when I was in the ambulance. I was at my weakest and I could not even stand on my own. It was so hard to breathe, my blood pressure was so high, and everything was so complex.

Recently, I have been in and out of the hospital because of the worst experience I have had after I traveled on a part of Visayas here in my country for I was enchanted. It is hard to express and tell everything that happened for even me, I am also puzzled as to why it all happened.

I used to complain about this. And I have many “if only” thoughts. The scary truth about it is something anyone cannot explain, but I chose to keep silent.

I had never experienced it even before but after I had traveled to such a destination known for spells, poisons, and all. I never believed about it until it happened to me. And I never thought it would happen and I would be affected in just a blink. On my first attack, the Doctor said it was just a panic attack. When she assessed and evaluated me, she said all was well and I was functional.

But I wanted to take something because I could not take it and I felt like dying when it happened to me at dawn. Good thing there were people and some neighbors who rescued me. She even expressed that she is a conservative Doctor, but I insisted that I cannot take it every time I am experiencing the attack. So she had given a prescription to me as needed but during an attack, it seemed no relief at all.

Attacks happened not only once, but it was not normal. I have been to several laboratories and all the results show normal. One time, a nurse asked me if someone threatened me, and I answered that I never get into trouble. Even the Doctor at another hospital was wondering about my situation because everything seemed normal and as they looked at me, it seemed nothing happened.

Until the day came when my mother finally decided to go to an old woman, a rural doctor, who had the power to heal a certain condition through the use of traditional practices, prayers, and herbs.

And then she figured out that my health issues were something not natural. There is a schedule for the many attacks I have had as they say that these invisible creatures become so powerful on Tuesdays and Fridays. I just followed what she had told me and after weeks, little by little I am getting well, and finally back to my workplace.

I had been lying in bed for months. I fainted and I remember the only person who was there for me in the ambulance was my mother. I kept crying because I felt I was dying and could not make it anymore but I stayed strong despite my struggles.

Until I realized that at some point, I had been unproductive. I have been unproductive not because of procrastination and laziness but because of health issues. All my life I have been doing things that I love but life changes in a blink.

How hard it is to be productive when health is a problem. I miss doing many things at once. I do not complain about many tasks as long as I am well. Even before I could do several tasks at a time but now, I am taking a break.

Perhaps to have a productive day, greatly requires an amount of energy to function well. I admit that I had been at my lowest, and when it happens to me, also I become unproductive.

However, I firmly believe that the right mindset will help with a healthy body and I found this thought true when I was able to experience it. One of the best things that I have learned is to take advantage of every moment and enjoy it because life simply changes in a blink at the least expected moment.

Disclaimer: All texts and pictures are my own unless otherwise stated.