What I Really Need... Checking Beneath The Surface

I tend to jump into different things without really mastering any, and it worries me. I'll be all into one thing, then a few months later, my interest shifts to something else. And I do find myself asking, "what do I really want?"

I am aiming to grow myself financially, but the big question is how to make that happen.

In a recent chat with a classmate, she mentioned her interest in tailoring and the need for a male mentor. I asked why she didn't consider female tailors, especially since she might need to sew dresses and tops. But she was firm about wanting to focus on sewing trousers and had her reasons. Even though her reasons were not convincing, her confidence in her choice made me a bit envious.

Being able to make decisions is important in our lives. People often say that today's decisions shape tomorrow, and I completely agree with that. Both good and bad decisions have consequences, sometimes with a ripple effect.
Once made, some decisions are irreversible. Reflecting on it now, I realise this fear might be why I hesitate to take certain financial steps. Will it turn out well or not? I don't want to be a loser. But isn't life about winning and learning? I prefer not to label it as failing; I've surpassed that stage, lol.

"What do you really need?" is a question I've asked myself several times before now. I needed clarity.
I needed to understand why I struggle with making financial decisions. So, I went on to check beneath the surface.

Physically, I don't have these fears, so I figured they might be buried in my subconscious. I've realised that many things are tucked away there: memories, both good and bad, fear, and ignorance, all potentially leading to mental constraints.

It all stems from the mind, but what impacts our mind is what we see, hear, and feel in the physical. These elements accumulate and influence our subconscious, shaping our thoughts and actions daily. Our surroundings play a pivotal role in this process.

So, do you still wonder what I truly need, or have you cracked the code?:)

FREEDOM. What I genuinely seek is liberation from my past struggles, freedom from fears, and breaking free from this indecisive nature. I want to be clear about my desires and be content with the outcomes, whether favourable or challenging.

I want to add value to the financial aspects of my life, and I know it will require a lot of effort and decision-making.

Is this the first time I'm saying this? No. Will it be the last? No. But will it be the last time I say it without acting? Yes.

Already I've taken initial steps towards my financial goals (while in school). I've been researching extensively, and I'm very optimistic about it. I have a clear purpose that propels me. The route might be filled with hurdles, but I just want to get there.

Minimalism has shown me how to balance living in the present with being goal-driven. It prompts me to pause, reflect, and find happiness. Reflection feeds our minds with positivity, allowing us to appreciate our achievements and adjust our strategies for unmet goals.

I do not claim to have it all figured out. I'm still exploring with an open mind. I understand there is a lot to learn before earning and while earning, and as long as I have life, I am certain that I also have access to continuous growth and development.

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Thank you for reading me...

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