LOSING MYSELF

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Sliding down the slope
I find myself, nothing I
Do can seem to keep me
Still, On and On I slid off.
With my trust broken, and
In my wobegone State.
Why can't I get a hold of
Myself I say, wondering
What mistake I made, that
Has put me on this unending
Slope of tears.

Crying myself out, all alone
In my room, till my sanity starts
To wane out. Till my heart's can
Take it no longer. Sobbing
Uncontrollably, sleep far away
From me. Losing myself, In this
Rollercoaster of emotions.
Reality hits me hard, as I find
Myself heading downhill, in a
Subconscious emotional state.

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How did this happen ??, I say to
Myself amidst painful sobs,
Why ?? I start to question,
Doubting myself. I wonder
If I would ever get back my sanity.
Lost in a Whirlpool of Emotional
Conflicts. With the unending betrayal,
That I've been served.
Crying my heart's out, tears pouring
Down like torrents,
What's are my Options.