Beautiful Sunday - I Want To Cry Out Louder

It's too painful that I am sick today. I was walking under the heat of the sun going to the bank. I didn't ride taxi to save and I never buy food for me even I was hungry. How I cared for my family back home but sad to say, what I sent Isn't enough for the financial shortage. My son went to the doctor for he experienced heart pain and headache. Yes, there is something and waiting the reading from the doctor tomorrow. I hope it's not delicate. I hope and pray for him. I knew what he had been through since last year 2022. He is a silent type person, weak and not like me who is a stronger woman. I cannot blame of what kind of person he is. I am now in great pain. I need someone to understand me not giving stressful mind. I am good to everyone but I am always tested by time. The way of my life is always like this and I am happy the time there are people who comfort and understood. I entrust everything to God😇😇😇. One day , I will be in a good shape and God won't let me down. Even my sister was also having issue from her heart. They went to the doctor together for e.c.g and laboratory test. I am so worry but this trials won't kill me but will make me more stronger.

If ever I will die in this place, it has so many memories to tell, this place helped me for my family. The people here treat me as human being. This is my second home. I don't know if there is tomorrow will cone to me. I choose this picture to my #beautifulsunday post because this place infront of the bank I remitted my salary back home is the proof how this place made me happy to earn.

Last night, I felt so happy that I talked to someone that made me inspired until I slept because I was already chilling. I felt coolness inside. I slept happy though I am sicked. In the morning today as I open my messenger something shocked me. No other things to do to let it out is to cry. Crying for how many hours will eased the pain inside of me. One day, you will remember me.

I am so sorry for being emotional today but it is better to tell it out than to keep it inside. My tears is falling down as I write this post. I am still lying on my bed feeling sick and pain.There's a lot of things coming into my mind. There is no regret for what I had been done. I did my best but the best of me is never enough to make them happy. I kept my silence, my sorrow to understand everything.