Today you are all friendly, and tomorrow you are not.

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I did enjoy my own company a lot until I gained admission to college, and a family friend advised me on the need to open up and make friends. It was a hard decision, but he stated clearly that I cannot do life alone, just as I cannot do college alone. I need to make a few friends that will be there for me and cover for me just in case the need arises. Opening up and trying to make friends was like a quest for me, a quest that was very difficult for me, but I still tried it anyway.

"Hey, help me put my name on the attendance list." A coursemate passed me a piece of paper where he had written his name.

"You will have to pay me, because you can see how stressful this is." I teased him as I collected the paper and tried to not get kicked out of the line.

I managed to write our names on the list after so much struggle. On my way back to my hostel, I could hear someone shouting, but I refused to turn since that is exactly how thugs call on people they want to prey on, and I just stepped into campus. Giving them an opportunity won't be a nice experience; instead, I hastened my footsteps since it was kind of a lonely road, and whenever these thugs prey on new students, nobody interferes or tries to stop them; the only way out is to avoid them.

"Guy, guy, how far?" the person continued to call out.

I had a few people who tried to point me in the direction that I was being called. I still did not turn for my own safety and kept a very straight face. Next thing, I felt a tap on my back, and in my mind, I thought they had caught up with me only to turn back, and it was the guy from class.

"I have been calling you since, but you did not responded. My name is Dera, and I just wanted to thank you for earlier today. I would have still been trying to write my name up until now, but you saved me the stress." Dera said

"My name is not Guy, though, and you must have heard stories of this road, so I was being cautious. My name is Kachi, and for earlier it was nothing." I responded

"So, where are you headed? This one, we are all headed in the same direction." Dera asked

"I stay in the hostel, block E, to be precise." I responded reluctantly since I was already feeling disturbed and, at the same time, wanted a friend.

"Ohhh, I stay in block H." Dera answered, telling me both his room and his room number. I could come around when I was less busy, and we parted ways.

So our friendship started, but I wasn't all that open to it. Some days I am all in and all friendly, but when the feeling of wanting to be alone kicks in, my whole mood changes, and I start acting like I don't want the friendship, but deep inside I do.

"Bro, there is something I want to discuss with you. I don't know how you will feel, but I just have to say it since it turns out that today is one of those good days." Dera said when he came to my room.

"I am all ears, man. I am listening, and what do you mean by one of those good days?" I responded

"I just want to know why you blow hot and cold at the same time. Today we are good, and tomorrow you are making me feel like the friendship is one sided and I am forcing things. I want to know because I am starting to have some thoughts cloud my head." Dera said

I felt really bad, though I know what I was doing was bad, but I still couldn't help it. Him confronting me means he really wanted the friendship to work, as some people would have backed off already.

"I am really sorry, bro. It's more like my type of person; I enjoy my own company more and sometimes like to be left alone, but I will make adjustments. I am sorry for making you feel that way." I responded

"It's all good; at least now I know what we are dealing with, but no more blowing hot and cold." Dera said, smiling.

"Yeah, no more, bro, I promise," I answered.

Today we are best of friends, and I realized that if you really want something to work out, your type of person won't stop it from happening, as you can always make adjustments. I am still me, but with Dera, I don't blow hot and cold.