Talk it Out Thursday - Stress & Solution

Right now im devastated by a whole lot of things in my own personal life situations. And thinking about them all at once aint helping out but rather speeding up my stress level counter by the minute.

Then this happens while I was still lost in thoughts after a really rough day

While I was cooking something to have for dinner to at least ease my stress a bit so I can sleep before anyone even knows I'm home, I was hit with the fuck your food by the gas stove.

He's just decided to run out of gas at this time of the day.

What just happened? I exclaimed.

The gas had run out….

I had to look up to the universe to ask what exactly I've done wrong (coupled with having a shitty day already) again to let this happen now

Well, fuck it, lemme hit the nearest place for a refill…exactly my thoughts.

Without wasting much time I head out to the nearby refilled, but sadly, their shop was locked. When I asked the store beside it about their whereabouts they said the owners weren't even around all day because they travelled a few days ago.

But i passed there a couple of times without noticing anything. I must've missed it somehow.

Talk about how we usually see what we are thinking about and what we dont think about are almost invisible to our eye. It's like they never existed at all.

When I heard the sad news my stress level increased because my mind was split between two thoughts all at once without me having a solution to any of it. Maybe if I had thought about one thing at a time I would've thought about strolling down the street to see if ill find another place to refill the damn gas.

But my mind was split between where to refill and also what would happen to my damn dinner tonight. Assuming my rice had boiled for a while I wouldn’t have been bothered because I knew itll still be hot for a while before my stepmom got back so I could use the gas in her room which was locked.

But im the only one at home with an unboiled rice and a hungry stomach.

My stomach isn't even bothering me but more importantly, what would happen to my damn rice. This feels like a rant towards Rice and myself.

One thing I’ve learned about this is that sometimes stress isn’t only about what's the cause of our stress but rather how we think through it.

Tbh, I never thought I could find anyone around to refill the gas because instead of strolling down the street to search for another alternative I was wallowing in my freaking fate of hunger and wastage that will both affect me if I didn't refill the gas cylinder.

But my mind was not hooked on the solution but the problem I had at hand because while I was sitting at the gas station trying to think my way to a refill the gas station down the street was already closing their store and heading home.

I actually knew about that when a friend was coming from the area and told me that the man refilling the gas down the street was already closing if he hadn't closed already and that if I could still rush there to plead with him he could help me out before going home.

Immediately I rushed down there sweating and breathing like a Christmas chicken about to be slaughtered. Luckily I met the man already on his bike bout to zoom off but immediately he saw me he didn’t think twice to off his bike engine and reopened the shop again.

I thought thinking would relieve my stress but it never does as only by taking actions step by step can we ever find a solution to our problem.

Off to bed