Life Begins at 30+
I thought life started to be boring. Entangled from responsibilities, obligations, dreams, etc. It was stressful that even in my old age I achieved nothing. I felt empty and hopeless, there was an even worse time that it was hard to wear that precious smile like my younger days. Then on, I forgot the feeling of being happy.
Most people said that their journey in life was like a roller coaster ride but sadly, not for me. I always saw myself in the depth, like in the abyss where no matter what to do I couldn’t be on top. No matter how much I sacrificed for something, there was no success to be found. I was frustrated with the life I wanted to be. Yes, I was desperate to have a better life because like the others, I desired it as well.
However, all of a sudden the fate of life twisted. When I began to be content with what kind of life I had back then. It was like magic, maybe a miracle would rather call it since magic didn’t exist. I layed low and accepted everything. I didn’t ask for something to satisfy myself, like my needs and like I wanted. I fully understood that this is life and this is what it means to Live.
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I didn’t know what happened. There was nothing special that I did from what I remember. Dumbfounded. I started to see a light in the darker days. Maybe it was 2 years ago when I decided to settle down. I destroyed the walls that were hindering my dreams. I conquered all the challenges that tried to push me down. Moreover, I strengthened myself not to give up in this battle of life and death about life.
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Yes, I shed tears like the rain of December. My heart was shredded into pieces like when too many storms ruined my life. Even after that, I asked God why the Sun didn’t brighten my day but instead darken it with too many obstacles in life. I asked him but I never complained because I knew, despite all of those. A beautiful new day is waiting and yes, I’m enjoying it’s hotness right now.
Yes, I am smiling like there’s no scars left in my heart. I laugh out loud like there’s no struggle that happened just a while ago. I am content with the kind of life I am right now. I am happy to be with my friends, family and loved ones. Problems are always there but I can face them already because I know there’s always solutions to them. And yeah, just like in the photos, I could be happy without restricting myself not to be. My age might be added with another year, but it’s okay because I know growing old is the beauty of Life.
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ABOUT ME
Paul was born in Macrohon, Southern Leyte but currently living in Cahayag, San Francisco Southern Leyte. He graduated the course of a BS Mar-E or Bachelor of Science in Marine Engineering in 2019. Although writing is his passion so instead of sailing he decided on writing.
He writes occasionally about random stuff he would see in the outside world. He loves to express what he feels through writing because he's not good at speaking personally.
He also writes fictional stories and emotions because he thinks life matters. He is hoping that his words could reach someone who might be feeling down.
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You got this! I never planned my future, I just kept fighting and searching for the light, believing we can overcome bad moments, even though I didn't know how. Now, in my early 30s, I've realized that if I don't take action myself, I'll never become the person I want to be. It's time to take control, fight for a better future, and find something I'm passionate about. No matter your age or how others succeed, what matters is that you love your way of life.