Hey, I'm Alone
The deafening sound of different songs that I always played sometimes made me cry, laugh and sometimes get bored. I don’t know where to go, and maybe because there is no specific place in mind that I should go to. I hesitate to call someone to accompany me. Actually, I'm afraid to disturb someone. There must be something they need to do or there is an important thing to be prioritized first.
I don’t know anymore. Time passes seems so fast. It was cold and dim when I woke up. However now, it feels so hot and bright. I checked the time, wow, it's already 3 in the afternoon. I keep yawning and my eyes begin to close. I’m tired and bored of sleeping in the afternoon. When I woke up, the sun had already kissed the horizon. The moon is waving and saying hello because it’s almost its time to duty. I’m not crying but a small amount of water from my eyes. It forces me to sleep. How hopeless I am.
Oh, I fell asleep for a minute there. I couldn’t stop my eyes from sleeping. What are the things I must do this time to make myself busy? What context I’ll be writing next to make myself awake and keep watching the store. I couldn’t think well even though it’s quiet here. Then let me find songs that will make my brain alive and active. Too bad, I’m not that good at remembering titles of songs, but melodies and meanings are what I always remember.
I’m not sad or anything, maybe? Am I that bored really? Why would I when there’s a mobile phone to ease the boredom and push myself to be busy. Well, mobile phones are not always helpful in this kind of matter. Being outside, looking at the surroundings and seeing real people, not in the virtual world is the best. Getting old is sometimes telling you that life is mournful. Sorry, here I am again, back to my usual self.
I’m tired, not physically but mentally. I began to become honest again. My eyes are fully awake like a sun so bright above. However, what’s inside me is so dark that I don’t think I can explore it more. A lot of happenings in my mind right now, yes, my imagination. I wanted to see them happen. You know what, sometimes I wanted to live in my imagination instead.
I’m writing random things and thoughts again. It’s quite embarrassing but honestly, I just write freely. No worries and borders to stop me until I can fill the hole that makes me lonely. It’s easy to be sad but it’s hard for me to be happy. But still, when I was outside, I smiled. I laughed hard and loud so people could easily tell I’m a happy person. Their thoughts are not important but sometimes their words are sharp like a knife.
Anyway, before this gets worse, I’ll just decide to sleep then. This is better, the world around me is at peace for the time being.
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ABOUT ME
Paul was born in Macrohon, Southern Leyte but currently living in Cahayag, San Francisco Southern Leyte. He graduated the course of a BS Mar-E or Bachelor of Science in Marine Engineering in 2019. Although writing is his passion so instead of sailing he decided on writing.
He writes occasionally about random stuff he would see in the outside world. He loves to express what he feels through writing because he's not good at speaking personally.
He also writes fictional stories and emotions because he thinks life matters. He is hoping that his words could reach someone who might be feeling down.
Join me and support me through my adventures not just to the world but also to the human minds not to hate being alive.
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