Self Love Is Necessary 💜

Hello everyone, this is my first time writing in this community and i am very happy to do so....
I was inspired to write here after reading @hopestylist post.... It was really a beautiful masterpiece and I am háppy i will be sharing my own today.

I know How much I have hated my existence for a very long time.... I know how much i hated the fact that i was born.. I'm always pained then. Normally, i didn't love myself, i looked down on myself maybe because of what people say or think about me....

I can remember back then in my secondary school... I feel secondary school has a way of draining people and makes people more inferior.....
People will be laughing at how black and short i am😢 they will tell me that nobody can love me the way i am because of my looks.... And all of that... ....
And that especially made me not to have friends because i thought I had nobody that Loved me...

It got to the Point that i am always conscious anyway i am that i am not beautiful, nobody loves me no matter how had i try to beg for love... I am short and black and everybody knows me as Aboki.... I became intimidated by my classmates and everyone around me... So i carried all those things in mind and started hating myself badly, 😓, the way i used to look down on myself eh back then.... I will see fine people and i will be like, i wish i was her, she is so fine, she has long hair and all of that...

Growing up... I discovered that if i can't love myself first, then nobody will love me. I despise myself... others despise me.., i hate myself,others hate... Nobody is gonna love me when i have so much hatred for myself..

So, when i finish secondary school, i decided to start reading books other side my educational area...
This books started helping me alot, it changed the ways i used to think about myself... It motivated me and took away those fears away from me.
I started accepting myself just the way i am .... I don't want anyone to tell me i am beautiful because i know i am beautiful, i know my worth, i know my value... I don't really care what people think or say about me... And i refuse to let anyone make my feel worthless and inferior without my permission.

After loving myself... Putting all the energy to invest in myself.... Other people love me too.... I can now stand out in the crowd to defend myself....
It has really helped me to develop myself.... Seriously though, i know the challenges that i used to pass through when i was still living in that fear...

I was always depressed.. because i had no friends to talk, laugh or gist With... But now i don't lack people to go to .... I don't lack people to laugh with, gossip with, tell my problems to...and they are always willing to help me out and i am grateful for the self reflection and everything....it worth me fighting for myself because i don't know what would have become of me now....

And someone i always thank my secondary school mates for how the treated me... Because it made me realize how important i am, who i am and made me realize how much i hated myself.

Self love is very important... Please let's try to love ourselves first before looking for someone to love us .

Thank you for stopping by
@mmenyene cares ❣️