Midnight Mess
It's 3.00 pm,
During 2022 and 2023, most of my blogs used to be drafted at this hour. In 2024, I have been struggling to change my schedule, but old habits don't fade away so easily. So here I am, once again with a late night writing to clear my thoughts and opinion and go for a peaceful sleep.
Right now, I am listening to music. No no, it's not me who is playing, those days are gone. It was around 2016 when I was a hardcore music fan, you know Akcent, right? One of my favs. The next door to mine is having a wedding party tomorrow, they have other rituals to fulfill tonight, and they are having fun. A marriage, a reunion of a family, two people starting their life. I just pray and hope that every married couple enjoys their life to their fullest with enough understanding and loyalty.
Well, from the day after tomorrow, I am also going to take a step, going to step out of my comfort zone and settle in the wilderness for the greater good, and that's not like for a few days, weeks, or months. Gonna be a permanent residence there. Oh yeah, I am gonna miss my home, and my family badly. But that's worth the decision I am making and the possible outcomes waiting for me, obviously the positive ones or I will be dead. Keep me in your prayers and get ready to hear the experiences of a new journey soon.
I was talking to someone about my decision, future goals, and career. We both agreed on a particular opinion that it is easy to earn a huge chunk of money if we can keep aside our ethics. The harder you are with the ethics the harder it is to survive in this society which is deeply sunk in corruption. Nope, I can go down the unethical ways because the money rains there brings no peace in the end. They have the money, buy all kinds of comforts, spend lavishly, and get praise from all but at one point in life or another, they feel lifeless for sure. Even if I am going out for my financial aspects, every day or tomorrow I knock here and there to earn some money like here in hive, and in my practical life as well. I do always pray and hope that I never get misguided from the path of the Almighty, don't wanna go down the unethical path that ultimately leads us to destruction.
It's been seen that people often go into that level of depression that they become suicidal just because they got one to hear their problems let alone solve them. I too, that way to tell everything in plaintext, and somehow I too feel like it's a brainer to share everything from A to Z if we don't have that kind of closest friends. I got none so here I am, here on hive, to share things in disguise, I know riddles, I know how to get coatings over stuff I wanna share that it doesn't appear in plaintext rather in a decent way that I get my relieve and not judged in any way. Even if it's not like that I do not care about anyone's opinion as none knows me in real life still it bugs me so I have an extra layer of protection, hehe.
Well, can you please mention your bedtime? Is it worse like me or how common scenarios do you see around you? I feel like I am the only worst-case scenario who spoils the nights like this doing nothing, sometimes ending up in hive to repair the dent.
Time to sleep,
Have a great day,
Take Care!!