Into the Matrix
Over the time we shift from one group of people to another group of people with whom most of the time gets passed whether be it for education, work, or anything else. Who lives alone? Even the most introverted person you have met has a very tiny circle or a best friend to rely upon. There is, was, and always will be. Even the most hated person has his haters around him to keep him busy and engaged, give him a purpose, and make him a devil.
Well, I am going towards darkness but it's not about something like that. Right now I have one or two groups of people from different sectors with whom I do have conversations on a regular basis except my friends and family who are everlasting. Among them, I wanna shed light on someone who is very senior to my age and professionally as well but does have a very friendly relationship with me with some goals that we both are working together from scratch. He is transiting from another atmosphere to a completely new one and I must admit that he is a very hardworking and dedicated person, also a very religious guy.
We came across a public platform, I was seeking some help explaining the roadmap that I had walked till then and planning to walk on. He was about to start, he found me worthy of walking together and so he approached me first in my inbox approximately a year ago. We still together, discuss many things that might add some value together. We do have some common goals among the many we both aim to conquer. Every day he shares his work and doing that somehow motivates me and I do the same as well. That's how we grow each other, right?
Today he was sharing about one of his new journeys that he has started paying almost 1000 USD. It's been two weeks and now his feedback is that that particular XYZ goal needs dedication, extreme efforts, and a serious mindset to crack the challenges. His mentor did share everything from scratch on how to do it and that's what his initial mindset is right now. I do agree with this, it's true in every sector, everywhere, without dedication and effort you may gather some quick bucks out of luck but that's not sustainable, no way!! Exceptions can be an example, remember.
For this, I wanna sacrifice myself, someone who keeps an eye on everything, shows interest and dives in but barely makes an effort to make this a reality that can be celebrated as a success. Yeah, I am that person who is a jack of all trades and master of none. I don't blame anyone or anything but myself. I have never been able to win over the distractions that lead me towards wasting time, towards things that ruin my productive hours. I am seeing myself going towards the downfall yet I am to react to survive this, I am yet to break out of the matrix of my distractions, I am yet to make those effects at my fullest. I believe in the potential I have but those are getting rotten, I feel angry with myself and feel like punching me straight on the face.
I don't know how many times I have ranted on myself, how many times I have thought of redemption, don't know of the countless promises made to myself for not doing any more injustice to me. Yeah, these are injustices, we do to ourselves. I don't know how long this chain of destruction is for me and when I am gonna break free from these shackles. Keep me in our prayers, waiting for some good days ahead.
Have a great day,
Take Care!!