I Wish I Never Met Her

Today, while i was preparing for the day to watch Mike tyson vs jake paul fight which will be happening today, setting my mind and full happiness on how the fight will be then I receive a call, guess what, it’s my Ex, she called me to check up on me and see how i was doing, immediately my mood changed. The call was like an unexpected call at the wrong time.

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Each time i hear her voice my memories goes back to how we spent times with each other, how we exchanged the I love you word with a sincere heart and not a joking heart. I remember telling her then that I don’t care about my happiness and all i wanted was for her to be happy and be mine also. Her memories still looks afresh in my head, nothing is more special to be that for her to be happy, unfortunately life didn’t want us to be that way or maybe she did not have the same feeling as i do for her.

I remember i have been anticipating this day for this fight, my friends and i argue mike will win while others argue jake paul will win, but to me i feel Jake paul will win because he is very much agile and still active. Mike tyson is a very good and deadly boxer but the truth is we cant outbeat old age, no matter how much we train or try hard to keep the balance the younger bones will always be stronger than the older one. If i was to choose a supporter in the fight i will choose Mike tyson because he is a legend and i have watched several of his highlight and skills and he is definitely good but to the winner will be Jake paul. I remember i had so much excitement anticipating for this fight until that call came in. I hate to feel this way. I wish i never fell in love with her this way it hurts real deep to experience someone you love not ending up with them or not later seeing them in your life.

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Music heals me of my negative thoughts and bad experiences, when i am down and there is no one to talk to i try to add to quaeu songs that suits my mood that moment. I then tried playing kendrick lamar song , love and also Humble, this songs have been very inspirational to my love life. Making me feel alive and loved. It wasn’t easy for me to overcome. Sometimes when i go through my phone i find her pictures all over my phone in my gallery with lovely experience and the best fun ever. Presently not all i want is for her to be happy but I don’t think i can ever open my heart to be loved by her again because it’s not really easy for me to give someone that kind of feelings and still endup being abandoned, very painful experience.

Sometimes we wonder if this songs are really worth listening to but the truth is music heals the body, soul, mind and spirit depending on the songs anx the lyrics. Some people prefer not listening to the lyrics and just the song with the beat but i prefer listening to the song and also the lyrics. Kendrick lamar lyrics here really inpspired my day. Now i am awaiting the great fight that is yet to come with my full mind and joy.

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