DELULU

6 months ago

DELULU!

I have always been obsessed with K-pop celebrities all my life! I won’t say all my life but it all started when I was fourteen. I was scrolling through my YouTube page as usual. I barely had friends and I spend 70% of my time watching YouTube videos. I watched this music video “BOYS WITH LOVE” by a boy-band. I found them so attractive. Their dance steps and most especially their looks! They were the most handsome men I’ve ever seen. I instantly got hooked. I went further to search for their names. There were seven of them: Jungkook, Jin, J-hope, RM, Suga, Jimin, V. Jungkook was my bias, he is the youngest and I found him more attractive than the other members.

I was so obsessed with Jungkook, I spent all my savings buying photo cards of him and also on his albums. I got “BTS '' and “JUNGKOOK’S WIFE” printed on my school bag. Thinking about it now, it’s actually funny but my experience as a girl obsessed with K-pop in school was a sad one. My classmates laughed at me and called me “delulu” and all sorts of names. They’ll always laugh at me when I pass and mock me because of the “JUNGKOOK’S WIFE”' I printed on my school bag but you know it was what made me happy and watching them mock me because of what made me happy made me cry often. The only friends I had then in school stopped sitting beside me in class. When I approached her to ask why she has been avoiding me lately,, “Who would associate with a k-pop freak!” This was what she said to me and since then she avoided me and also talked to the rest of the class about how I imagined marrying a K-pop celebrity. This made them mock me even more. One time, a boy attempted to throw a book at my school bag and it hit my eyes, my glasses fell off. Instead of helping me out, they laughed at me crying.
“Why don’t you call Jungkook to help you out, I mean he’s your husband!” They laughed even more loudly.

I cried throughout the day till I felt dizzy. My mum made it worse for me. I came home to see all the photo cards of BTS and JUNGKOOK that I spent all my savings on being burnt.

I ran to bring them out of the fire but my mum came out and shouted at me. She hurled insults on me. She went further to say that my obsession with K-pop celebrities is the reason why I didn’t have a good result but that wasn’t the reason. I was drained mentally because of how I was bullied in school but you know, I was just trying to do what makes me happy.

I ran to my room and cried even more. I couldn’t find a single photo card of them. Not only that, the albums I bought have also been burnt. I plugged my earpiece, playing my favourite album. “LOVE YOURSELF.” No one seems to understand my obsession with BTS except for me. I was bullied because of my look, you know…them big nose, dark skin and glasses. But their album “LOVE YOURSELF” made me stop being insecure about my looks and also appreciate myself but I guess that doesn’t matter now.

I heard a knock on my door the next morning. It was pretty strange because my parents and siblings have left for work. I was the only one at home, I didn’t want to go to school today because yesterday was a horrible one. I paused the BTS song I was playing to check who it was.
“Who is that?” I asked for a second time but there was no reply.

I felt sceptical about opening the door but as I proceeded to open it, I felt a cold shiver run down my spine as I pushed open the door and a wind blew across the door. A man with gorgeous fair skin dressed like a pop-star partly covering his eyes from the wind stood in front of the door. I couldn’t see his face properly until the wind receded.
“Wait a minute.” I thought. His face looked too familiar.
“That’s JUNGKOOK from BTS! Wait, am I dreaming??”

I pinched myself multiple times to confirm I wasn’t dreaming but at the same time, I felt little or no pain.
“Serah.” He smiled as he called out my name.
That’s my name! I’m Serah!

“I got a gift for you” He smiled, raising a box.

I collected the box for him and let him into the house. I thought I was dreaming but it even got more real when I opened the box. It contained a lot of BTS photo cards and also a ticket to their concert. I jumped up excitedly. I was so excited that I started crying. I couldn’t wait to rub it on the faces of my classmates that I got to attend a BTS concert which they said I never would and I also met JUNGKOOK. He visited me!

“Do you want to see the other members?” Jungkook smiled at me.

“Yes, of course!” I nodded excitedly.
“Okay then, it’ll be a surprise.”
“Surprise?” I questioned.

He covered my eyes with his hands and led me to my room.
“Tada!” He said excitedly.

I widened my eyes to the sight of all the BTS members in my room. I screamed excitedly. They all smiled at me.
“Serah, You need to love yourself more and you’re beautiful the way you are.” RM said to me and the members nodded supporting him.
“We love you.” They said in Unison, smiling earnestly.

I’ve never been this excited in my entire life. I ran to give them a hug but then, just like an illusion, they faded away. I was shocked as I stared at myself at the mirror.

“It was a dream! It was all a dream!!” I cried as I woke up from sleep.

I ran to the particular seat where they were all seated. I picked up a card from the seat and to my surprise, it was a ticket to a BTS concert!

Till today, I didn’t know who left it there but the concert was the best part of my life. I got to see them physically and even communicated with Jungkook {He smiled at me at the concert.}