RE: Sometimes I suffer existentially

I understand the pain you mention… you want to do all the best you can in the highest quality. Keep yourself busy at all times… I did the same for a longggg time.
We are sometimes our harshest critic. If you do all of that, you can for sure be proud of yourself.
Even though you don’t feel at peace with yourself sometimes.
But… Let the washing pile up for once if you need to have some off time. It’s ok too.

Try to find your rhythm… when you need some time for yourself and when you want to be extra busy with side projects.
I hope you find your balance…
It’s good you write this up for yourself. It helps too in many ways. If you ever wants to talk, let me know.
There are people here that are happy to help and listen 😊
!HUG