A Bad Memory of Past Hits me Again

Have you ever experience a tragic event in your life? Like someone died maybe your family member or your pets? And the last question is,how you managed to moved on?. I encountered a prompt created by sir Galenkp which you click here. One question that hits my emotions was this question.

What experiences have you had with the death of someone close to you or a pet - How did it effect you in the moment and moving forward?

It's such a tragedy what happened on us during 2019, that was the time that my sister died due to brain tumor. It's such unbelievable and shocking since we didn't expect that tragedy.

This is my sister who left us here on earth, the image was taken during 2019 and it was my birthday, I don't want to celebrate it but she insist to roam and celebrate it on market market. If only I could get back the time then I will stop her. It was a fun celebration not until she told me that her knee is aching,I told her to take some rest at the corner. It became better but when we got home, she suddenly felt a pain.

That was the start that she can't no longer walk properly, she needs someone to accompany her serve as her support. We went to different doctors to check her status but they only gave her medication.

She became okay after months but suddenly another sickness hits her again and that time it's Anemia which her blood count is very low, we tried everything to make her well until the night of 17th June, she suddenly felt heavy pain and vomit that's why my older sister decide to deliver her to hospital.

When they came home at morning it was my brother and auntie which gave me a tragic bad news, my sister died and never determine her sickness not until the doctors made a check and it was brain tumor.

My world shatter that moment, I cried so hard to the point that I slept due to tiredness of crying. I still remember that she was the best sister in the world that always accompany me in every steps that I have, though we fought sometimes but it doesn't stop us to love each other.

She was always there supporting me on my academic achievement and we celebrate no matter how small we achieve. Literally she was the best sister that I have, my world is never been before when she left us.

How we moved on?

Honestly, there's no word like move on if someone you loved died, maybe you'll forget temporary but you'll never move on from tragedy. It happened 5 years ago but the pain is still in my heart, I always longing for her presence and still blaming myself for what happened. Everytime I see the memories that we had, I can't stop myself from crying.

It changed who I am today, I am happy person before but when she left me in this world, I no longer feel the word happiness. For me she's my ally and my worst enemy, she's the only person that I rant everytime I experience a lot of problems. But I believe that if someone left, there's someone or something coming better however no matter what good it was, no one can replace my sister in my heart forever.