PLEASE DON'T END

Indeed the holiday is coming to a halt, honestly speaking the thought of this breaks my heart as I wish not to resume this early. At the point of writing this post, I have less than a week to resume work, and if I'm being honest, I'm not happy with it at all. It literally gives me shivers thinking about it, I wish I could get more rest because I don't feel I've rested enough. I love that feeling of waking up in the morning without thinking of doing anything. I literally miss the feeling of sleeping as late as 3:00 am because I know I can wake up anytime I like. If the holidays should end I would have to be looking at the time to make sure I get a good night rest before the morning comes, I would also have to wake early, dress up and face all the Hassles of trying to not be late for work.

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Although I love my job, but lately the working conditions have been really toxic making it difficult for me to love doing my job. I'm being given tasks upon tasks out of my job description with no compensation whatsoever. But that's not even the issue, the main issue is that I'm being scolded so harshly for little mistakes in doing something outside my line of work plus also being scolded for not meeting up to my KPI because I was doing something outside my KPI. Now that I've written this, it's as though I'm saying it out loud, but then It's something I really need to watch out for in the new year as I don't think I would be able to continue doing the things I was doing outside my KPI that has now made me look incompetent and feel unappreciated.

I'm not one to put money on the forefront of everything I do, that was why I accepted the take outside my KPI in the beginning. But now, it seems like I would have to charge the company for major tasks outside my KPI, which if I think about it really makes me uncomfortable and makes my heart sink because I don't like to be seen as money hungry. But it's looking like if such an attitude should persist, I would be left with two choices, quit the job, or charge the company for every major task outside my KPI. Truthfully I wish there's another way to this but it currently looks like the only two possible solutions with the latter being the most possible to occur.

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I think all these are enough to feel sick when I think about resuming work because I wouldn't want such actions to continue in the new year. I did speak to my HR about it during our last meeting for the year, but I don't feel anything would happen to change it. I really want things to change for the better after the new Year but then again, I don't know if my complaints would be taken seriously. I'm already making major moves to ensure I won't suffer if I decide to quit my job and I hope they push through because truthfully, if nothing changes It would be so sad to leave my current place of work.

THIS IS MY RESPONSE TO HIVE LEARNER'S PROMPT FOR WEEK 146 EPISODE 1