Life Lately

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Hello, virtual world, hello hive home, how are you all? After 3 months of inactivity, I'm popping like a pimple again here. Haha. I'm very inconsistent in my socials since last year and thought I can get that fresh, and motivated mind to start this new year. Unfortunately, just like my other past-year plans, I failed to make it again. (The curse of planning new year resolutions lol)

_{New apartment}

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If you ask how's my life lately? Somehow good because finally, we moved out from our previous apartment. I can't take the toxicity of my neighbors there anymore. They were so insensitive that they don't care if it is okay for us, other tenants to smell and inhaled the smoke of their cigarettes. They just do their own and act like they own the whole building. Fine, they're all theirs now. No more smoke from cigarettes, no more Marites - (called for gossiper), and our pets can freely play without stopping them making noise because Mariteses will get mad. Tss!

Panda can do anything she wants here now. Right, Pan?

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Haha.

Another update, mom comes home from abroad and we spent together on Christmas. She stayed for almost 2 weeks and we welcome 2023 happily. But that feeling change when I find out that she is in a new relationship again. Actually, I knew it, I just don't want to see her. Yeah, she's her, because my mom's partner now is lesbian.

Mom is separated from my battered father for 20 years. (I'm only 6 years old back then.) Then she loved another man again but got betrayed after 6 years. Tsk! Their 16 years old daughter that is my half-sister is now in my care because her father has a new family and no time to prioritize her.

I got mad at mom because she doesn't get tired to love. Why does she keep looking for someone that will hurt her in the end? Are we not enough for her?

When staring at her I pitied her. I know she only wants to be loved and get loved, and it's normal. We all need that. I understand that we, her kids can't give that love and attention she may look for, because most of the time I admit that I don't check up on her, like how's her day, if she's alright. I'm guilty and. I'm also busy doing things that I love. I'm guilty that I neglect her oftentimes.

I talked to her and listened. She explained and let out all her feelings. She cried because I'm so harsh to that person. Of course, she can't blame me. She always gets into a bad relationships and I want to protect her. Mom asked for my permission, she want to introduce her partner. That time I melt down. I can't take to see her crying. I want her to be happy during her vacation because after 2 weeks she'll be back abroad and will work for 3 years again.

And so I agreed.

Her partner drove 35 km to see us. We met and didn't expect that she is prettier than my mom. (Facepalm) Huhuhaha! She's around 5'2 height while my mom is 5'1. Cutie lol! Thought her voice is somehow masculine but it isn't. And when she laughed her eyes disappeared. (cute)

Are these two just playing? They looked like just "magkumare" (friends). I said in my mind while looking at them happily. My mom's laugh is so pure that I don't want to take it from her. I set my pride back and became selfless for her happiness. I'm like a mother to my mom at that moment.

_{Captured when we were in the airport}

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Mom already went back abroad last January and so far I and her partner are on good terms. Soon she will also get back to work abroad but not in the same country where my mom is.

I was thinking to include her picture now but I'm kinda hesitate to do it, so maybe next time. Hehe

So that is the highlight update in my life right now. Even though it's very personal to share I let it out here because I can finally talk about it without getting pissed. I don't want to get stress to the things that is not always on my control. I want to accept it and move on.

Is someone here experience the same situation? Do you think I did the right thing?

Anyways, it's good to be back! I thought I already forgot how the process of blogging here. Good thing not. Hehe 😁

How about you? How's life lately? Let's catch up! :)