How it feels when you are unloved but loved.

I have actually faced violence for seeking love. Great incident happened with me today I'm really upset and sad for the same. Since noon, i am seriously very dipressed and have been quite for the whole day. By this attitude my parents too asked me about it but i have no answer to it. Today the institution in which I'm seeking my lectures, there is one of the worst girl over there, litterly very jealous of me, she really wants each and every damn thing that i want. Actually she's just one of my worst enemy ever. I have never faced such a stupid and worst girl ever in my life, yes i do had a fight with some of the other girls but they are not like that once we are over we are, she has litterly one of the biggest interfering character in my life.

Recently i like a boy, i told my closest friend and he just told it to his bestfriend(the bestfriend of the boy i like). He just discussed it with him and he was like yes I'll talk to her. This thing just came across that girl and from that day onwards she started like him too. He like, is mad over him, walking with me, being close to him just to make me jealous. Now that boy just came over a few who told them about me, that i hava a crush on him, now there were just like appreciating me that the boy decided to say to talk to me and he said it to my bestfriend.

This conversation was told to me by my male bestfriend who had a word with that boy. This was really good to listen until what happened next which i came across. Last week she was fully over him, and litterly sticking to him and such a great mess just to make me jealous. So everyone do know that if someone comes close to the person you like, that's the worst moment ever for you. Now after i just had a conversation with that boy we started liking each other, i confessed and he agreed and i was really happy for the same. This thing was known by a few people not everyone and neither that girl.

Now what happened today, we decided to meet inside the institution and he and i were a bit closer talking to eachother and being friendly. Now when i just went to talk some of my stuff I don't know what happened with that fuc*ing girl. She literally pulled my coat and was like pulling me, we pushed each other and then again a great mess. All the people close to me started gathereing over there even that boy and sorting the conversation.

She just started mumering in her own way by standing far away and then asked that boy and I or this girl(me) and he choose me and i just feeling quite at that point of time but I'm really very upset and very depressed about that fucing bloody girl who is one of the worst. What she did is the worst thing ever i have faced in my life. Like what bro why are you bothering me, it's my life and it is his choice, i would have easily gone away if he had said me a NO that yes you can go, I don't like you back, then i would have easily gone away but why if he agrees that yes it's okay. Why is that fucing girl borthing me.

I litterly have nobody at home to share such situation with because everyone have a personal type of war with me. Blaming me even if it's not my fault, so i had stopped sharing my how i feel and what is going in my life with each and every family member. It's my life, i will decide whom to share it with and whom not. I felt good by sharing it on hive, because people i will tell you the reason, here we all are new for each other, not judging anyone, having no personal problem with each other, so we will just read each other's post, up vote and just pass by no body had that much concern with anyone and judging them, so that one of the biggest reason why i feel free to talk and express over here.

I would definitely say she literally have some personal sort of problem with me and just keeps of giving a side eye each and every single time i see her, there is a different type of problem i face the moment i look at her, it is one of the worst moment which i had ever face, I can not forget what all fight just happened with me today and make me the quite ever, the version of me that no one has ever seen. That is why everyone around me questioning me that what has happened to me from the last 2 days but i have no answer
And with this this post of pain and suffering had ended making me feel really better by expressing what i feel, i will feel good if you will try to post some comments to sooth me.
It left a long term worst expression on me about that fuc*ing bloody lady! I would really like to appreciate her with some of the more good words but then remember what I am thought since childhood and not the same person as she is just a thrown chemgum who sticks to everyone unnecessarily, lasting one of the attention seeker tag on her which and many more differences which made us differ from each other a lot the point from which she stops thinking is the point on which i start thinking and that is the difference one more i would say. Love is just a war.

I would have easily said some of the worst abusive words on her face but after that the mess would be gone even more worst so better i would stay out of it. I would like to ask you people that should i repeat this topic again or just move on from this topic. The bullshit she has done made me hate her even as more as i could, i would be the happiest the day we seperate from the institution. Getting out of this worst thing can really help me out to love someone correctly and better. What all i have just presented is a feeling of revenge but the revenge shall be pretty cool not that of a fight.