Bits and Pieces

I’m very flawed. I think it’s one of those things that I’m glad I can admit to myself. That no matter how much I pride myself to be principled and have this outlook my friends think as well put together, a fountain of knowledge and all that, I can at least be truthful to myself to admit that I am flawed as the next guy and every day is characterised by one mistake or the other.

That doesn’t mean I’m hypocritical or living a fake life. I do have a lot of scruples and principles that ground me and I can never go against but I just have a long way to go before I can think that I can remotely be where I want to be emotionally, mentally, or even morally. I’m not sure why exactly I started like this. I guess I intended to link it a bit to college life.

More than anything dorm life shows you just how different you are from other people. Dorm life has left me slack-jawed, open mouthed, aghast at just how different people are from me. I become blazingly aware that people have different orientations and some things that are clear to me as day that they are wrong and shouldn’t even be remotely considered is perfectly normal to the next person. And every day, I usually say things like, “How did she think this is okay?” “Why would anyone even do or say something like this?” Meh. It’s just what it is. I can’t change the world and to be honest, I’m not sure how inclined I would have been to even if I could.

Again, what was I driving at again?

Oh, I’m back from school. Not staying long. Just back temporarily for a family function. I’ve been away from Hive for nearly two weeks because of a set of examinations I need to take that literally determine my future. I can’t dare mess it up cause a lot is riding on this so I knew I needed time to be away so I don’t end up saying stuff like, maybe if I studied a little harder, devoted more time, focused entirely on this... And all of that. I’ve got to give it my best shot so that I’d know the situation was out of my control if God forbid, things went awry. I'm positive it wouldn't be like that though.

But guess what....

Said exams have been postponed for like another two weeks from the intended date. I was and still am truly downcast cause I feel like I need to finish that phase of my life. But yeah, since I need to believe that everything happens for a reason, and that reason is probably so I can study a bit more, I’m willing to take it in good faith. However, I couldn’t keep staying away from Hive because even being away did something to me and I had to be convinced practically every day why I needed to stay away.

But now I’m back, howbeit for a short time. I don’t know how much I’ve missed but writing has always been liberating for me. And with how my emotions have been on a rollercoaster recently for several reasons, I need my outlet like a thirsty man to a brook of water. So till I come back fully, it will just be bits and pieces here and there.

It’s amazing to be on this interesting Blockchain with its equally interesting people once again. Lol. Have a wonderful week ahead guys and keep staying true to you always!

Jhymi🖤

Oh, and Happy New Month too!

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