A reading addiction.


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On the contrary, this prompt is going to make me expose some embarrassing moments in my life.

So my undying habit that I can't change till now is reading. Of course that's a good thing you see, but when it becomes an addiction that takes away your sleep and distracts you, then it's a bit on the problematic side.

No, I'm not a scholar; I just love reading stories, fiction, adventure, action, horror, and historical fiction, and my big-time favorites are those mystical types of stories, those with sirens, werewolves, angels, and demons. I'm pretty reserved in nature; no matter how friendly I appear, I don't have many friends, so stories became my social escape from the realities of life.

And yes, I was actually that type of person that gets inspiration to write after reading a story or two; now come to think of the world in my head! my ideal world of fantasy, goodness I can daydream for Africa I could just sit here lost in my own imagination while conversing with a friend. Yes, I was that typical novel girl who could not sleep until I had finished that book. Even when my body is exhausted, my conscience won't allow me to sleep. I would feel so guilty to fall asleep... I can't sit in front of a television to watch a movie for more than one hour 🤣. But if that movie was in story form, forget it.

We die there

And that habit followed me into college; I could stay up all night reading novels with 500 chapters but to read my school books; it becomes a battle for the strong, not the weak.

I remember when I missed two of my tests! Because I stayed up all night, I was so exhausted that I slept through the morning of my test and woke up in the afternoon. That was the first time I missed, but I was able to do a cover-up test later on.

The second test, I forgot entirely... You know how your mind just assumes it's a particular day when it's not. For example, if today is a Friday but your mind just assumes it's a Thursday, I was so intrigued by the book I was reading that I lost track of the day. But God was on myself, and they didn't use that test. So I was saved.

I think I started noticing my addiction in my third year. I was to focus on every book app there is, and I wasn't focused on my books, and that was seen in my results. Ordinarily I can never get a D or E in my result, but when I saw 2 Ds and 1 E, nobody told me to sit up. I had to cut down on my reading, delete all the novel apps I had, and I even went as far as deleting my own stories—5 good stories I had already completed and wanted to publish.

I think my problem back then was that I distinguished between my spare time to read other books and relax from focusing on my school work. I stopped reading for only a month and went back again 🤣🤣.

Deleting my own write-ups came to hunt me down like karma would. I encountered a contest where I had to submit a complete story; they just needed 100 chapters and a minimum of 2000 words. The person who introduced the contest to me told me at the deadline, and she submitted hers and got $100, while I couldn't, and that was another regret on its own.

But on the bright side, I learn to balance my habits, and I never, I mean I never delete my stories, even though I couldn't complete them or they looked so cringe-worthy with grammatical errors, I left them in my story folder. I couldn't repeat the same fate.

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I'm so sorry, dear. I'm a recovering addict like you so I know how it feels. I wouldn't have been able to delete my stories, though. I can't imagine how you must have felt doing that. It is incredibly lovely to see you around, @jazclassic. It's been a minute and I kept wondering where you were.🌺

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Thanks darling 😘, I felt sorry for myself back then, but I caused it though. But still I can never leave a good book as I'm taking to you right now, I just left a story to come check what up in here. I have been around just not everywhere like I used to be. Thanks for stopping by though @jhymi . 🌹🌹

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Wow, this is the first time I'm encountering a case where reading was a problem. You really missed tests because of books?😮 That's crazy.

I mean I kind of understand when you say you get lost in a book. A good book would do that to you. I'm happy you were able to discipline yourself and sit up!

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I just don't know how to explain the addiction back then, right now I'm okay with it cuz I don't have anything doing, I think it was because I rarely made effect to make friends in reality. So books were my everything. And yeah I totally have way better control over it now. Thanks for dropping by.

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