Silences that stun and ...

Necessary silences.

Look, anxiety is a constant anticipation with flavor and uncertainty, where the future is always perceived as threatening.

That's when he asked me, in my silences that stun me.

How to achieve a state of peace of mind, in the midst of uncertainty?

That is the process I am going through, because soon my husband will be undergoing an open heart intervention to cardiovascular his heart.

Without a doubt I have too many questions in my head about this procedure that literally opens the husband's chest in two.

The thing is that if they (the medical team) have a problem during the interventional catheterization, they deserve to open the chest or finish the procedure without achieving the goal. Increasing the risk as we already know.

I think it is a good advice from my friend Janeth, to talk before the surgery with the doctor (cardiovascular surgeon) and tell the Doctor with the heart in the hand, according to the degree of obstruction that my husband has and his surgical risk. What would be the most appropriate procedure for him at this time?.

Although in medicine it cannot be predicted because metabolic behaviors are very personal, but for me peace and tranquility, it is a very valid question.

I also think that the doctor will continue to think that open-heart surgery is the method that can best correct the problem and also the riskiest.

Without a doubt...

It will be my husband who after all these answers decides which way he wants to go, since he has a probability of treatment by the end of the month (October) whatever it was.

However, one thing to take into account is that the clinic where the procedure is performed has an A1 ICU where the post-surgical procedure can be covered, where the possible risks are completely covered.

With him (my husband) all fronts must be covered, his preconditions can give surprises. I would say that even having friends prevented to be blood donors.

But well, I'm already talking a lot.

As I always say and support him in this difficult health situation of my husband "I am optimistic, but down to earth and accepting this reality", I do not lose its meaning. To be optimistic without that is to be an illusion.

Even one step away from major surgery for my husband, our actions as a family must be based on realities.

Understanding that peace begins in the mind, and my mind reminds me to abandon the pessimistic view of life. That I am not afraid to dream, nor afraid to assume life as positive things that may come to you.

If it doesn't happen, because it didn't happen, I continue my life and do it again, and if it happens, then the joy is greater.

Know, that I bless the good on this occasion of so much needed silence, and I want peace of mind too.

Janitze 🌹