I May Have Lost A Lot, But I Gained A Few That Could Be A Lot

29th December 2022

Looking back at these past months, the things I've done, the decisions I've made, the achievements I acquired, the opportunities I grabbed, the new life experiences I added to my memory, and the number of failures and losses, I could say that, it's 50/50 happy and sad. Well, we can't really just look at the positive aspects, especially when the negative ones outnumbered the positives.

However, despite those failures and regrets, I can't deny the fact that I am still blessed in general. I mean, I am still alive and kicking, and I can still able to do more things, I can still correct the mistakes and wrong decisions I have done, and above all, even though I lost a lot, I somehow gain new things which I could say are worth holding.

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I May Have Lost A Lot, But I Gained A Few That Could Be A Lot

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Failures, Losses, and Regrets

One thing that I stopped doing long ago, is checking my Coingecko portfolio. I even forgot when was the last time I updated it. A few months ago probably. But after reading the @ruffatotmeee post yesterday, I got curious about how deep my portfolio is now. In today's crypto market status, I could certainly predict my portfolio status.

The length of my hope and excitement of last year is as long as the depth of my portfolio now. Just imagine if I would add my losses and gains, that would be equivalent to a million money in our fiat. This is even not updated yet, especially the BCH, Hive, and DeFi investments.

I hoped to become a millionaire through blogging, crypto trading, and DeFi investing back then. When my portfolio reached 75% of 1M, I was too happy, blessed, and excited to reach the 1M goal. Unfortunately, seems like my fate doesn't want me to achieve that soon. The crypto market crashed, not just once, twice, thrice, but multiple times.

I failed to manage my portfolio well due to a lack of effective strategies, knowledge, and lack of self-discipline. Oftentimes, I let my emotions control me when unfavorable circumstances occur, rather than controlling them. In the end, I lost a lot of investment, including my effort, time, and hope, even my desire and motivation.

The only thing I regretted the most was not giving enough courage to recoup my investment back when the crypto market was still at its peak. Because I thought it wasn't the right time. Just imagine if I sell more than 10BCH at $1600, then I'll have more than $10K. What if I sell my ETH at let's say $4K, and my BTC at $60K, I probably have a lot of savings in my bank account by now. That's enough to put up a business and I could definitely rest from grinding for a while.

But then I was too weak to do so back then. And looking at the recent crypto market performances, regrets filled my mind for not doing the right decision at the right time and making the wrong decision at the wrong time.

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However, we can't turn back the past, and the decisions that have made were made and can't be undone anymore. All I have to do is to let bygones be bygones. I actually accepted this long ago. But there are moments (like this contest) when I can't keep recollecting my mistakes and failures. Yet, this somehow helps me self-reflect, evaluate my life, and make a change.

Achievements and Blessings

I may have lost a lot, but I gained a few that could be a lot.

Comparing the blessings and achievements I got last year, this year only has lesser. Yet, they mean a lot to me and could be a lot someday if manage well.

Despite the decrease in crypto prices, I am constantly accumulating some through blogging. We may are still in the bottom right now, but it is certain that, sooner or later, we'll be able to rise again. That's what life is all about anyway, full of ups and downs, and so does the market. A little longer patience is what we all need here, and importantly, self-discipline and faith.

The most positive decision that I made this year is when I opted to be active on this platform. While my outside portfolio is decreasing, my portfolio here kept increasing, and I was able to establish a good profile. I may have regretted not doing it too soon, but what matters more is the right decision I have made, and I would do my best part to keep it growing.

However, it's saddening to see the platform where I started being abandoned because it's no longer supporting its users. I have no hate or regrets about being there because that is where I established a name in the blogging world. Besides, because of that platform, I meet beautiful people, gained knowledge about cryptocurrencies, DeFi, and blockchain, built my crypto portfolio, and learned about Hive and other opportunities. I wouldn't be here if not because of that platform.

In terms of my personal life in the real world, I am blessed with whatever I have right now. They may not be that much, but enough to suffice the needs. I am grateful as my family was able to surpass the challenges we have faced this year, in both health and financial aspects, with the help of Almighty God above.

Plans and Goals

I have said before that I don't like setting goals as I might just be disappointed once I failed to achieve them. However, setting goals would help one become motivated and able to track progress, as well as mistakes that should be corrected.

There are only a few goals that I want to continue this year.

• I want to keep blogging here on Hive, to share my life stories and experiences, and keep building my account. Writing has been my way of releasing my feelings, emotion, and thoughts when I need to, especially when I have no one to talk to.
• I want to recoup my losses one at a time, slowly but steadily, until I get back on track, and until I no longer feel regrets about my past failures. I may have lost more or less 90% of my investment on another chain, but at least, I still have the 10% of it. And hopefully, I could make it grow this year in another way around.
• I want to pursue vlogging and keep myself on the right pace in managing all my online side hustles without compromising any important aspect of my life.

Challenges may be inevitable, however, blessings are continually coming that we should acknowledge, and opportunities shouldn't be wasted.

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To sum up, I somehow enjoyed my life this year, was able to experience new things and learned lessons from all my failures and mistakes. And isn't it a blessing to have a chance to wander around this foreign land? This is probably the most beautiful opportunity I ever had.

We only have a few days left before this year ends. I wish you in advance a happy new year. And hopefully, the year 2023 would be great for all of us. (I hope so)

This is in response to the current Hive Ph end-year contest with the topic,

2022 Recap and 2023 Plans
How did your year go? Naenjoy mo ba? May regrets ka ba? Reevaluate your year and plan ahead for 2023. Planning phase pa lang naman, di pa resolution breaking.

Thanks for your time.

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