THE CRACKS THAT MAKES US WHOLE

Being flawed can be one thing that every human try to run away from accepting and it gets to this point when you just want to shun everyone that tells you about your flaws by trying to justify your actions. I have been in that position before and even lately. The interesting part is, we do know most of the areas we are found wanting but then, we have somehow chosen to ignore them because for some reasons, we have found pleasure in them that we are not ready to let go of.

If for any reason I’m fortunate to listen to others point out some areas where I’m not doing well for me to work on, it has to be these; The top on the list will be my communication skills. I do know how to interact with people, keep a conversation going but then, I have come to realize that I’m mostly the first person to say goodbyes, not really because I want to but because I don’t want to be told goodbye. It’s funny because, sometimes I end up saying it too quickly and that starts affecting my communication with others even without me taking notice of it.

There is this ripple effect I get from every relationship I put an end to and I feel that is something that if I’m told to improve on, I won’t want to argue about it. I have lost some good relationships because I some how try to compare my past relationships with them and somehow, my mode of communication just keeps getting worse and I kept becoming unfriendly to even people I shouldn’t be unfriendly with.

The second thing that needs improvement in myself is my anger management. I have improved so much in this aspect of my life to a considerable extent but I can’t deny the fact that I still struggle with it sometimes. I want to improve on this because I have come to realize that most times when I’m angry, I tend to make drastic decisions that end up hurting not just myself but others as well. Luckily for me, I have a few persons that understand me more so they have been really helpful to me in this regards to help me be more careful when I’m mad not to make any decisions that I’d regret.

And finally, the last thing that I thing someone will want me to improve on is my walking step. To me, I don’t see anything bad with walking fast but then I have had a lot of persons complain about it and I’d really like to improve on it because I sometimes see someone I know on my way but I find it hard to walk with them because I see how slow they walk and I don’t want to walk slow, lol. This is going to be a hard one for me because I have always known how to walk really fast since I was a little girl but then, I believe everything can be worked on so I will just keep trying my best.

I believe I can improve my communication skills by learning to listen more, so I can make better contributions to conversations. I know I can work on my anger management by learning to be slow in pouring all that I have in mind to say and also be more active in listening to others. And in the aspect of walking fast, I believe I can learn to walk slow by always trying to be early to wherever I need to be and then, I don’t have be worried about running late. That way, I won’t mind walking slow with someone.

Please feel free to leave any suggestions or advice you think will help me achieve these improvements better if you have any. I wish you a fabulous weekend 🌹.