the journey of knowing me

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Self-search such a strong word. I have been thinking about this particular word for days. Have you discovered yourself? This an easy question to ask but not quite the easy type to answer. Might be hard for some people to talk about this, but on the other end others answer this question so easily. However answering this question requires deep reflection.

Who am I?

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This is a tricky question for me, there was a time I thought I knew who I was, that I knew what defines me as a person but as I progress through different stages of life, I find a new me at each stage. Someone so completely foreign yet at the same time very familiar, truly tricky I tell you this person call me. I remember when I was at my lowest and I said to my mom, "am never going to be anybody in life". Her response was " you are my daughter" this response so simple yet so touching, stunned me. She knew what I was asking, of course, I wasn't asking her if I was her child, I knew that. What I meant was in the aspect terms of achievements. However that single word, heal my heart, touched my soul and helped me massively.

To understand who I am, I decide to date myself and this surprisingly gave me a good result. Here are a few things I know about myself, I love tackling problems, am always restless when I encounter a problem and won't quit until I can provide a solution to it. I love reading, books are my safe zone. Writing was never really my thing before but now I enjoy writing about things, though, I am still in the learning process, am however grateful am getting of how far I have come. We indeed have lots of hidden talents and hidden potential. I also discover that am a smart and intelligent lady. I discover so much more but I will stop here.

Does this mean I have discovered myself, yes and no? Yes, because I know myself better now, I know what I want and what I don't, and I know to make myself happy, dating me was the best decision I ever took. And, No, because I believe self-discovery is a continuous process, we uncover new sides to ourselves each day. I don't completely know myself but hopefully, as my dating progresses, I will keep getting a clearer picture.

what gives my life meaning and happiness

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Some things make our life more colourful and give it meaning. When I started the journey of finding out what makes life more meaningful, I found God and that has given my life more meaning. Being spiritual has been a great blessing to me, it has made my life more colourful and meaningful. For others this might be a different thing, spirituality is a personal thing.

I derive happiness from small things and big things. Happiness is a wide term and differs individually. I get happy when I see a smile on the faces of my family and my friends. Am happy when I achieve my goals when I orcomeovercomeblem. I get happiness from lending a helping hand to someone.