The journey of being an aunt l Fear, love and emotion [ENG-ESP] La travesía de ser tía l Miedo, amor y emoción

Many times I imagined being an aunt, and it was a lot of fun what was in my head, things that in part have been fulfilled, but what it really means to be an aunt is much more than fun.

Muchas veces imaginé ser tía y era muy divertido lo que había en mi cabeza, cosas qué en parte se han cumplido, pero lo que supone de verdad ser tía es mucho más que diversión.

Earlier I had told her the story of how my sister could not have babies and miraculously Alissandra, my first little niece, was born. Alis has become the daughter I have not had, the eyes of my life, the owner of my heart, and anyone who loves their nieces and nephews will know that what I say is true, because having nieces and nephews carries with it a very strong responsibility.

Antes le había contado la historia de como mi hermana no podía tener bebés y milagrosamente nació Alissandra, mi primera y pequeña sobrina. Alis se ha convertido en la hija que no he tenido, en los ojos de mi vida, en la dueña de mi corazón, y quien ame a sus sobrinos sabrá que lo que digo es cierto, pues tener sobrinos conlleva una responsabilidad muy fuerte.

Alissandra is 2 years old, and has two wonderful parents who are my older sister and my brother in law, with whom I have 15 years sharing, this is like another weight that I have because they trust me too much and have shown me, not only that, but what I have 5 years with my partner and they know and love him, and this has led to the following, we sleep together, we spend time together and Juan (my husband) is very attached to the baby and vice versa, but his blood aunt is me, not him, so that my sister and my brother-in-law trust him to leave him with my niece is something very big, in the sense that now we cannot trust anyone with our children, I have seen so many cases of ugly things that relatives do to their children, and on the other hand my sister has entrusted me with this child for everything, in fact I was the one who changed her first diaper, who took care of her when she was newborn, Alex (my sister) leaves her in my care, she lets me sleep with her, she lets me cross roads (this scares me but I get brave) she leaves her in a park, in the street, she lets me feed her and this has made two things clear to me, one that she loves that child and she loves me, and two that a child is a responsibility that exceeds the limits, and not only that, but that for love of them one does whatever it takes.

Alissandra tiene 2 años, y tiene dos papás maravillosos que son mi hermana mayor y mi cuñado, con quien tengo 15 años compartiendo, esto es como otro peso que tengo porque ellos confían demasiado en mí y me lo han demostrado, no solo eso, sino qué tengo 5 años con mi pareja y ellos lo conocen y lo adoran, y esto ha llevado a lo siguiente, nosotros dormimos juntos, nos la pasamos juntos y Juan (mi esposo) es muy pegado a la bebé y viceversa, pero su tía de sangre soy yo, no él, entonces que mi hermana y mi cuñado confíen en él para dejarlo con mi sobrina es algo muy grande, en el sentido de qué ahorita no podemos confiar en nadie con nuestros niños, he visto tantos casos de cosas feas que le hacen a los niños los mismos familiares, y por otro lado mi hermana me ha confiado a esa niña para todo, de hecho quien cambió su primer pañal fui yo, quien la atendió recién nacida, Alex (mi hermana) me la deja al cuidado, me deja dormir con ella, cruzar carreteras (esto me da miedo pero me vuelvo valiente) me la deja en un parque, en la calle, me deja alimentarla y esto me ha dejado claro dos cosas, uno qué ella ama a esa niña y me ama a mí, y dos que un niño es una responsabilidad que sobrepasa los limites, y no solo eso, sino que uno por amor a ellos hace lo que sea.

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Being an aunt has made me aware of that maternal side that I didn't think I would have because I don't want children, at least not at this moment in my life, but Alis makes me fall in love, she is a beautiful, intelligent girl who loves me, recognizes me, loves me, hugs me, pays attention to me, she is the most beautiful thing I have ever had and I say that with propriety because I know my sister's love for me is from another world, she is super special and Ali is a piece of her being that she has given me, she has shared with me and for that I value it more, even my sister has told me that if something were to happen to her that I would take care of her daughter and that, definitely to be told that are strong and big words that are not said to anyone, being an aunt is a hard and risky path because it is not your children if you have to make a decision, but if they are in your care then they run under your skin the decisions and it is up to you as a dad to take care of them and protect them from everything, and if possible cover them and defend them over your dead body, as they say out there, so congratulations to all those uncles who are everything for their nephews and nieces.

Ser tía me ha sensibilizado ese lado materno que no pensé tener porque no quiero hijos, al menos no en este momento de mi vida, pero Alis me enamora, es una niña preciosa, inteligente y me ama, me reconoce, me quiere, me abraza, me presta atención, es lo más hermoso que he podido tener y lo digo con propiedad porque sé qué el amor de mi hermana hacía mí es de otro mundo, es super especial y Ali es un pedazo de su ser que me ha prestado, me ha compartido y por eso yo lo valoro más, incluso mi hermana me ha dejado dicho que si a ella le llegase a pasar algo que yo me haga cargo de su hija y eso, definitivamente que te digan eso son palabras fuertes y mayores que no se le dicen a cualquiera, ser tía es un camino duro y riesgoso porque no es son tus hijos si te toca tomar una decisión, pero si está a tu cuidado entonces corren bajo tu piel las decisiones y te toca como un papá cuidarlos y protegerlos de todo, y si es posible cubrirlos y defenderlos sobre tu cadaver, como dicen por ahí, así que felicito a todos esos tíos que son todo para sus sobrinos.

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With my niece everything scares me, give her something to eat and she chokes, she falls, something goes wrong, something happens to her, there are so many things that can happen with a child around, but I try not to think about it but to be aware of her surroundings. I am also too spoiled with that child, she looks at me and has everything she wants, I love to hear her laugh and fight with her, I love playing with her, watching her sleep, her tasty baby smell, everything about that child I love, and she is, despite the risks the best thing that happened to me, honestly. Do you think the same?

Con mi sobrina todo me da miedo, darle algo de comer y que se ahogue, que se caiga, que algo le caiga mal, que le pase algo, hay tantas cosas que pueden pasar con un niño cerca, pero trato de no pensar en ello sino de estar pendiente de su alrededor. También soy muy demasiado consentidora con esa niña, me mira y tiene todo lo que quiera, me encanta escucharla reír y pelear con ella, amo jugar con ella, verla dormir, su olor de bebé sabrosa, todo de esa niña lo amo, y es, a pesar de los riesgos lo mejor que me pasó, sinceramente. ¿Opinan ustedes lo mismo?.

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La fotografías son capturadas por mi celular Redmi 9t y a veces con mi cámara Nikon p500. A parte de fotografías subo contenido sobre maquillajes, recetas de cocina, reflexiones y opiniones porque mi imaginación es extensa y mi intención es crear temas de conversaciones que terminen en agregar nuevas amistades. Mis traducciones son de Deepltranslate, mis editores son el celular, Picasa, Inshot, o Canva. Un abrazo y mis mejores deseos para ustedes.

The photographs are captured by my Redmi 9t cell phone and sometimes with my Nikon p500 camera. Apart from photographs I upload content about makeup, recipes, reflections and opinions because my imagination is extensive and my intention is to create topics of conversations that end up adding new friendships. My translations are from Deepltranslate, my editors are mobile, picasa, inshot, or Canva. Best regards and best wishes to you.