Why am I doing this?

I don't know if I should call myself tenacious, stubborn or just stupid. Maybe a mix of all three? I started making visual art in 2017. Years later I am still making art despite selling way less pieces than than I have gifted away. Also my pieces that are sold are sold for way less than I would consider fair amount. In my art I use pyrography(wood burning). As far as I know Wood burning art is rare. I don't know anyone else in my country who uses it. I have spent countless hours with my art works. And even after gifting many of my pieces I still have a mountain of unsold pieces. Few days ago I saw on facebook that some artist abstract work was sold for 70+ millions. I know that I am biased but really don't see a reason why it costed so much. It feels unfair because for me it seems that my art takes way more effort and heart. And yet for me it is great if someone buys my piece for a hundred + euros... But life is not meant to be fair. So despite all this I am still making art and hoping that eventually I will make a breakout and start selling my art for what it is really worth.

Hive is another example of my tenacity(or idiocity?). I started blogging in 2017 as well. Sometimes I took long breaks but last few years(?) I was on a posting streak. Some days I had posted three posts a day. Sure some of them were shitposts. But all in all I tried creating good quality content. During those years many people would have given up , cashed out and left Hive for good. In fact my friend gave up without even making a single post. Also during those nearly seven years of blogging I have not taken a single cent of profit. From what I remember I only powered down to buy splinterlands cards and packs. After all those years I am lucky if my post earns a few dollars. I am sure that I could just say that I am not earning enough and post less or stop posting altogether. But I am not doing that. Like with my art I am not ready to give up on Hive. My posting streak has been broken because my computer needed to be repaired. But I am starting a new streak. I enjoy creating art and I enjoy being here on Hive. In both those parts of my life I still hope to get better results. So I keep chasing those dreams. Perhaps it is foolish or naive. But history is written by the winners. So if my art will start selling like crazy or if Hive will reach a few dollars it will prove that I was right to stick to it. So I continue to struggle and dream. Sorry about a long rant. Lets keep struggling for the better tomorrow.