Self-Doubt
Sometimes the feelings I had at the beginning of my Hive adventures come to the surface...
"Will someone read my posts or watch my vlogs?"
"Is it worth to write about this or that?"
"Will anybody see me?"
These and many other questions come to my mind and probably many minds out there.
My self-esteem has never been great as far as I remember and even though I have grown so much in the past few years, I still doubt myself...
"Am I enough?" or "Am I too much to handle?"
Probably I still give importance to what others think or take their opinion too much to my heart because I feel too much!
Even now I'm writing this and that "Delete" button is inches away from my fingers and every word I write I'm about to shut all down and call it another day without posting!
But, again, not only for the sake of others, especially for me I must write!
Because I've come too far to give up who I am!
(Cue Get Lucky Song lol)
I have to show others that they are not alone in self-doubt!
It is ok not being ok for a while, as long as you snap out of it!
Writing can be a good therapy to get things out of your chest!
And I miss it!
It is thanks to this community that I grew so much!
Sometimes I feel that I repeat myself a lot, but it is how much I like being here!
A lot of you guys showed me that I am enough! That I am capable of so many things! I have accomplished so many things even when I think that I did nothing!
So even if I just write once or twice a week, I will write something!
And if you are reading this and reach the end of it..if it resonates with you...you are not alone!
You have the support of this community...I promise!
Speaking of community, would you prefer me writing or vlogging? Or both?
Comment below :)
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I totally understand you feelings and I relate a lot with them. My self esteem is nothing that I'm proud of, you can say it... But one thing is certain: "I'll never drop the towel".
Please continue to share with us your feelings, impression, even that it seem repetitive like you mentioned.
Making a blog if for sure something that helps me connect with other, myself, and the surroundings.
Making one post by day, is giving me some light about the journey that I proposed myself to walk!
Be brave!
And thank you for your sharing, Eliana!
It means a lot when people reply right away to my posts, it's a sign that someone reads them even when I doubt lol
It has been a rollercoaster of emotions lately that most of the time I lose the will to write, at least publicly, but I'm keeping a journal as much as I can!
And my guilty pleasure is recording stories on Instagram lol
Obrigado :)
Whenever you need to vent, or just talk, you have my Telegram contact ;) And keep sharing your ideas, even if you think you're being repetitive or "uninteresting". You'll be surprised how many people read them and like to hear from you.
Boa quarta feira :)
Of course you are enough!
I wish you knew how much I look up to you.
I’ve gotten so much inspiration from you in just a post more than I have in years
To be specific the whole post about new management and how you’re taking it
I know you don’t know me but just know there’s one young lady from Africa you inspire all the time.
Thank you! I am so grateful for your comment!
It is people like you that motivates me to keep writing!
I was so happy to read it that I shared about it on my instagram stories lol
I'm not going anywhere I promise! I will keep fighting :)
Thank you so much Eliana🥰
Thank you for writing this!