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I've been out for a while, for those who missed me, I apologize, I had to play serious doctor for a while. But I have new reasons for being back:

1. The ease with which I can provide clarity to my thoughts.
2. I want this clarity that writing provides.
3. The fact that I have free internet access where I work.

I now write 50 words per minute on a day when I am very focused, a speed I plan on increasing as time progresses and my work now requires me to write as fast as I can see as we use Electronic Medical records for everything.

I sometimes write close to 2,000 words or more when I see day patients. It might reach 3,000 on days when I see up to 30 to 40 patients. I usually abbreviate when I have to see those numbers of patients.

I'm glad all my time learning to be a good writer on Hive has not been a waste.

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Why I might be back

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Source: Infinix Hot20i

I've been working on being more articulate- speaking my words into flesh. Dr. Jordan Peterson has said that there is nothing more important or that anything can make you more formidable (something along those lines).

Spending time with my brother (@belemo), his wife (@wolfofnostreet), and my sister (@young-boss-karin) right before the couple's travel affirmed the fact that I might have the pathological balance of conscientiousness (industrious but obsessive).

The next thing I want to obsess over is being articulate and addressing things head-on to my meaning.

In a way, when you use the SMART goals to plan things out, you are requesting from yourself a reasonable ask that you could address and you would address.

Because I've been obsessed with well-being/fitness and I have gotten my feet wet with psychology, the course I want to study has to be related to the two fields.

I know I can go in a worthy direction I just need to find out what direction that is.

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Why I might not be back

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Source: Infinix Hot20i

I don't want to be committed: I just saw my brother's post where he was traveling to the UK and still had to post.

My brother may just be as conscientious as I am. But he has directed himself in a path that is suitable for him.

Whenever we talk about working out he berates me about how much my consistency is too much. I found out that I like doing what I can and it's good for my health too. I can't imagine what my life would be without it.

So even when I travel to different locations I try out the gyms there.

If you ever catch me traveling part of my budget is gym money.

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Practing Medicine

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Source: Infinix Hot20i

I am really grateful to St. Dominic Hospital for allowing me to work as a contract doctor while I figure out myself. I know I want to country like my brother and his wife.

I hope it will be soon too.

St. Dominics has given me the opportunity to fulfill my ultimate goal in life, which is to be useful.

Before I took a personality test, I always had a feeling that I was agreeable because I've found myself as a health care worker...though in the third world, the personality test I did later confirmed it.

Knowing that I tilted toward agreeableness led me to know that one way I would be fulfilled would be to build stronger relationships with my loved ones. What would be a better way to do that than to help?

My family appreciates the help I've been able to provide also the hospital appreciates that I am able to do more work to fulfill my desires.

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Building my skills

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I've been a doctor for more than a year now... maybe 2...I'm so grateful that I devoted myself to this practice for the past few months.

I feel sad that sometimes I didn't take practicing seriously but if I didn't I wouldn't have gotten to this place that I'm at.

I'm able to handle multiple emergencies at once and I was even able to treat myself and others when I got into an accident.

I still want to be a psychiatrist and I love personal development so I'll still be moving in that direction but there is nothing wrong with knowing how to treat epilepsy while making a move to managing anxiety.

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Whats next?

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Source: Infinix Hot20i

I plan on exploring deeper parts of the interests that grip me. I know I am very much interested in psychology and fitness/wellbeing.

I've been sent some courses in a college in Northenham to choose from.

I hope I can be the best version of myself. I hope I can help others while I help myself.

REFERENCES

• SMART Goals and Mental Health

• THE BIG FIVE PERSONALITY TEST
  

• What Are The Big 5 Personality Traits?