My journey with Ketamine has concluded
It's been a wild ride
Last night, during the full moon, I completed my last ketamine treatment in a series of six. Over the course of the past three weeks, I have gone into a clinic and hooked myself up to an IV and had ketamine pumped into my body in hopes that it will heal my brain.
The experience was way more than I could have ever asked for. I was able to work through some pretty intense memories and emotions. I was also able to really begin my spiritual path and find direction for my life.
Traditionally, when doing Ketamine Therapy, you try and abstain from cannabis or any other types of mind altering substances on treatment days. My wife and I became friends with the owners of the clinic and they are very into natural medicines and gave me some pretty good insight on using cannabis and psychedelic mushrooms during treatments. They said that using those types of substances can be very beneficial and enhance the experience if done with the right intentions.
On the 19th, I had four grams of psychedelic mushrooms and had the most amazing mushroom trip of my life. I've done mushrooms a few times in the past, but I have never gone into it as prepared as I did on that day. I spent time finding videos to watch during my trip and music to listen to that would guide me on my journey.
I ate the mushrooms at around noon that day and by about 1 or so, I went and laid down in my room and listened to a playlist to guide me on the beginning of my journey. The come up with mushrooms was pretty uncomfortable and a bit scary because I didnt know what was gonna happen.
Time started going extremely slow and I remembered that I kept changing my position of how I was laying on the bed. It felt like I had been in there for hours but it had only been like an hour and ten minutes. I was thinking about my life and everything that had led me to this point where I was laying in my room after ingesting a large dose of magic mushrooms.
After nearly two hours of listening to calming music that is supposed to help begin the trip, I decided to put on a playlist of music that I put together to guide me through the rest of my trip. It consisted of a lot of EDM and some newer artists that I had recently found.
Once I turned my own playlist on, things got really interesting. Prior to turning on my own music, I was trying to force the trip to go a certain way and force feelings that I thought I should be feeling. But once I turned on my own music, I was able to relax into the experience and I told myself that I was just along for the ride.
My playlist began with an album by Savej. Shamanic chanting and deep bass began to penetrate my ears and my body was flooded with all the different emotions. Savej's music has an ancient sound to it that felt so familiar to me, like I had heard it all before. The ancient chants has a lot of Aztec influence and influence from other ancient cultures that have been known to utilize these natural medicines for thousands of years throughout history. It was like the music was beginning to guide me on a journey into my own mind.
As I was laying on my bed and watching my ceiling fan spin above me, ripples started coming off of the blades of the fan. It was like I was beginning to see the air being pushed off of the blades as little strands of hair. Light began to shoot out of the strands and it seemed like reality was beginning to tear and I was sort of seeing behind the world that I normally see. I began to see geometric shapes around the corners of my vision. The ride had officially began.
My wife came in the room and laid with me for a while as I just listened to music and went deep inside my mind. One of my favorite songs named "Hummingbird" came on and it was like I was hearing it for the first time. The song took on an entirely different meaning to me. I began to think about how I had been on this journey of life pretty much alone and I was not letting anyone else really in.
I felt an overwhelming sense of love for my wife at that moment and appreciation for everything that we have been through together. The tears started flowing like a waterfall. At first I tried to stop them, but then I allowed myself to just feel all of the emotions. It was such a beautiful moment with my wife and it really solidified my love for her and for our family that we have created. The rest of the trip was amazing and really helped me mentally prepare for my last two ketamine treatments.
As I went into the next two treatments, I felt as if I was really beginning to get some benefits from all of this. I crafted a playlist for my fifth treatment and it was my best one yet. I don't know if it was the mushrooms I had done a few days prior, or the new music that I was using, but it was a totally different experience. My visuals during my ketamine treatment were pretty intense, but not scary or overwhelming.
Prior to the fifth trip, I would lay back once my IV was starting and I would cover my eyes with my eye cover. This time, I waited about 7 minutes and was just looking around the room before I covered my eyes.
I began to feel the medicine working as my body started to go numb. Then the room began to move as if it was breathing and it got kind of confusing to keep my eyes open, so I pulled my mask down and everything went pitch black. Then I was catapulted through space and I saw the beginning of time. Everything flashed a bright white and then I began to feel like I was crafting my own universe. It was then that I really began to feel like I was in control of creating my own reality for my life. It was an amazing experience.
I had almost a week break from my fifth to my sixth and final treatment, so I was a bit nervous because the dose was going to be the highest dose yet. I created a new playlist that had some ancient sounds, along with a few songs that really have some deep meaning to me.
As the medicine started to kick in, I began to feel as if I was being pulled down into blackness. Then I was looking up at the stars under a full moon. I began flying towards a pyramid that I saw in the distance. As I got closer and closer to the pyramid, I could feel the brick and earth that created it. I began to push through the stone and dirt and was led into the chambers deep within it until I was outside of a large sarcophagus.
The sarcophagus began to open up kind of like a Russian nesting doll. There were three layers to it and once the third layer opened up, I climbed out of it. The entire trip was such an amazing experience and I wasn't sure what to make of it.
Before I went to sleep, I had smoked Granddaddy Purple and began to think about the entire experience. I realized that this last treatment was the perfect way to end this experience. I was reborn in that treatment and I really feel like I am a different person than the one that started this journey three weeks ago.
Prior to this entire experience, I paid little attention to the small things, but now I catch myself just staring up into the sky or just watching leaves fall off the trees or snow falling. I am excited for life and for this new path that I am on. I grew up religious, but that never clicked with me and for the past 10 years or so, I felt a dark void in my life.
I realize that I am a spiritual being here on earth having a human experience. We are all connected to each other and to everything. Life is a gift and we must use our time here on earth to spread love. Everything we go through has a lesson attached to it and once we realize that our trials in life are just lessons to bring us closer to our potential, we learn to influence our path and manifest what we need. I am excited to see where my journey takes me from here.
Good to hear it did you good.
I've also tripped really hard on it once. I had an out of body experience and time caught up with me. Very crazy stuff. For now I prefer to stick to cannabis and occasionally LSD twice a year
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Nice man. I know a lot of people that have benefited from the experience.
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Sounds like you’ve been making giant leaps forward with this combination of treatment. It’s certainly a lot, but sounds like you’ve figured out how best to handle it yourself.
I had never heard of Savej, but just followed him and added his latest album Entheogentic to my rotation. So far I’m loving it!
It's been a pretty interesting journey so far and I feel like this is just the beginning. Last night I kind of mourned the death of my old self and had a bit of an identity crisis because I don't know what comes next. But then I realized I am the captain of this ship and I can guide it wherever I want it to go.
Savej's music is amazing and will always hold a special place in my heart for guiding me along on this journey. This video during my mushroom trip was such a special time.
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It's a way to find our breadcrumbs... yes? A way to find our way back to the source. I am a believer that this source is God (Oh no! lol) but whatever we/you decide. Just glad you find peace in what you are trying to obtain...
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The journey was indeed a crazy one but I love how you have us full details of how it went. Anyway, I’m glad that the ketamine therapy was a successful one
Take a rest and come back stronger
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You have indeed... been on quite a journey, haven't you? I am glad that you were able to find other dear souls, as well as support from your wife, on this journey you've taken. I loved this message, as well as all the music you have provided (many saved to my history for later listening... because music IS the Universal Language). But what stayed with me... spoke to me... and resonated most. What were your final words...
Thank you, brother. For taking us along with you on this journey... Love and Light...
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Thank you for taking the time to read my post and appreciate it. It's been a long journey to get where I am mentally and I didn't think it would ever happen. It is nice feeling like I actually deserve to be happy. And yes, music is amazing and I have an entirely new appreciation for the artists that create music for these types of journeys. Music makes a huge difference in ketamine therapy and mushroom trips.
You said the treatment is over. Is it over for good? Or is it recommended to repeat it from time to time? I literally have no clue.
Anyway, I'm glad you had the chance to go though it and I hope it helps.
They recommend doing booster treatments ever 3-6 months. I think I will need to do one after a month or so and then I will go about three months in between. You want to keep the ketamine built up in your system for it to be most effective. Thats why they do the series in this manner.
That sounds so amazing! I wonder if the russian doll thing with 3 layers represented the layers you put on yourself to hide whatever was there all along. I will love to do this as well in the near future.
As far as the 4 gram dose of Mushrooms, do you plan to do that again? Maybe even a larger dose? Or is that pushing it?
The Russian doll thing could be because of that. My fifth treatment, I did have a feeling of layers of my breaking away.
I am planning on doing another 4 gram trip in the next couple months. I bought a bunch of the chocolate bars so I could do it again. I don't think I will go above 4 grams though. I don't think there is a need for anything higher. 4 grams is a perfect dose to feel great afterwards and have some really good insight into yourself.
Interesting your spiritual experiences. If your treatment does you any good. I'm delighted for you
Thank you. So far it has been really great.
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Once the doors are open, it is hard to shut them.
Loving that tune!
How special to do this with intention, purpose and support.
Thanks. It's going to be interesting to continue down this path.
Good on you for diving in. Many are too scared. It's not without it's challenges!
Whenever there is a full moon it looks more beautiful when there are clouds in the sky and it is also visible then the view is more amazing.
Doing a little therapy of my own and guess what? I've added Savej to my playlist. Exactly what I wanted to hear. Thank you so much for sharing this and Entheogenetic (in your response to @daltono in the comments). I actually left it playing and opened another tab to wander off into the interwebs with good music :)
We are definitely connected to each other and everything.
Thank you!
Nice man. I'm glad I could introduce you to Savej. His music is amazing for these types of personal journeys. I hope you find the healing you need.
I'm really glad you were able to heal so drastically! Thank you for sharing this part of your journey. I had a ketamine IV therapy course once and I also mourned as if my old self had died.
It's a weird feeling isn't it? I'm glad that others out there have gone through this as well and for the healing they needed.
It's really unbelievable what you've been through, man. You've been on a spiritual journey. I'm so glad it worked out for you in the end.
Thanks man. It's been a pretty wild experience so far. It feels as if my life is beginning again.
The full moon looks very beautiful. Music is food for the soul 👍
That's a wild treatment you had yo go through but I'm happy you figured out what works best for you and had your final series. Wishing you lots of health!
Thank you.
Very nicely written account of your ketamine and mushroom experiences.
It takes a lot of courage to embark on this type of journey, and the breakthroughs you've had by embarking on it are profound.
I remember similar "letting go" moments on mushrooms myself and can relate to this internal knowing when the choice is present to go deeper by letting go.
The dispelling of fear association in this regard is huge, and the grounding in the present moment helps with an egoless observer state.
I'm not sure how many travelers of space and time are here, but you're certainly one of them.
Great work brother.
Thanks man. I never thought that doing this type of therapy would have been so beneficial.
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I'm really glad you used that clickbait title so I didn't miss this post! That's awesome that you got to feel so intensely and freely, and that you let the treatments guide you. I know how hard that can be to have expectations that healing should go a certain way. I've done a lot of eye movement therapy had it show me things that I never in a million years would have guessed were the issues causing the limitations in my life.
And yeah, we're definitely all connected.
Aaaww, I'm so glad the treatment worked so well for you. That experience sounds great, I couldn't be more happy for you.
Being able to finally have control of your life, your thoughts, emotions, is just amazing.
Thank you. It’s truly been a life changing experience for me.
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I first tried mushrooms in summer this year and I feel in love with them and the way I feel for up to 2 weeks past the experience. It alleviated my anxiety completely and I felt a little more like myself again.
My second trip was even better - I went fully in and sat there watching the logs of wood for what felt like hours, but was only less than half an hour.
Both times I was with friends at the time, but next time I’d love to try them while being on my own to experience something like you and to achieve a deeper healing effect. Having other people around was great for the first couple times, as they did this many times before and could guide me through had anything unexpected happened, but now that I know what it feels like and the safe dose, I will attempt next trip on my own.
Seems like all of those treatments together had an amazing effect on you. I have reached the similar state of happiness and peace before, but recent happenings have disrupted my inner peace and I long to feel it again 😍💙
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That’s so awesome. Mushrooms hold a special place in my heart. Good luck with your next solo journey. It will be amazing for you.
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