What If

So much"what Ifs"
So much doubts
So many thoughts that things won't work out.
So much negativity on my mind.
There's this drama in my head , scenes brought out from a figment of my imagination , imaginations that never leave .
I don't know if it's overthinking or trying to get prepared for the disappointments that life usually comes with.
Seems like I have to put on a shield so my heart is hardened when bad things happen
Here I am trapped in my own shield
Trapped in my imagination
Trapped in doubt
It stays and whispers what if on the negative

What if I fail ?
What if I die young ?
What if I don't graduate ?
What if I don't have kids ?
What if I never get the job ?
What if I get pregnant out of wedlock ?
What if I marry wrong?
What if my friends leave ?
What if I never make it ?

What if ?

Doubts everywhere and I'm dying and drowning in unbelief.
But God's promises are there
And God's promises are true
And if God said all things work together for good for me and not "some" things,why do I still doubt.
As I write this piece,
I'm still thinking what if
What if they don't read it
What if they don't understand
What if they never say "what if"
How would they relate?

But then I say a little prayer:
Oh God help me overcome my unbelief.
Let faith win
Let my faith stay
Above the waves and the turbulent sea of doubt
Above the "what if's"
Let me keep my eyes on you.
The sea of doubt is raging and deep.
Don't let me sink Lord
Save me.

I know that as we go through life ,we experience things that make us doubt that things will ever work out fine.
I don't know if it's just me, but I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who has gone through a phase of hurt and thought it'll last forever but then it didn't , you came out of it but like a switch, you start anticipating when things will go wrong so that you can prove to your situation that you can be strong enough and get over it so quickly.
The truth of the matter is, things will definitely go wrong.
But
Romans 8:28 says
All things work together for good to those that love God, those who walk according to his purpose

That scripture didn't say some things,it said All things, Good,bad , ugly or amazing.

Are you struggling with doubts or rather " what if ".
God's loving arms are ready to pull you out of the sea of doubt just like he did Peter .
Keep affirming and declaring the word.

May your Faith never sink.
Thanks for stopping by.
Have an amazing week ahead.
Remember to keep your head up and stay hopeful.