One more weekend

SOmething I failed to mention in my publication yesterday is that my brother is a real fucjing weirdo and can bt a stickler for his routines. In away, it is actually an admirable quality because he is very consistent but at the same time, he simply doesn't know how to dial it down.

This morning, he decided to look for a gym because it is "leg day" and there are "no days off" or some shit like that. Honestly, it is as annoying as it is admirable and really, nothing can stop him from doing what he wants to do.

Despite discouraging him, he still came with all his gym gear and hit the gym after disregarding all my concerns about how pointless it is. I mean, taking one day off won't hurt so bad but for him, it is all about the "gains".

The whole idea behind reuniting in Warri was his to begin with, so I kind of thought we would spend the entire time looking at each other's face or some shit. Anyway, now he's at gym and none of that matters but we do have something planned out in what will be our last weekend together for a while.

Gone for a while

It looks like we will be gone for a while and as we get closer to our departure date, the more real it gets. Knowing that we're so close to my first of hopefully many more international flights fills me with a mix of emotions.

I'm excited at the prospect of experiencing a new country but I am also going to miss this place. It is a completely different life with a lot of family to access and leaving all of that behind really hurts.

I had a healthy conversation with my sister about life and what the future holds. I felt a bit of guilt that I was going to be so far away from her while she goes through all that she will in the coming years.

Now I know that we all have our paths to follow and that all that we can do for each other is ensure we are the best versions of ourselves. You have to understand that while we're from a big family, it has always just been me, her and my brother against the world. We've only had ourselves and now she's going to be experiencing a difficult year and I won't be around to be a part of it.

I'll try not to dwell on the sad part and just be happy about what is to come. There's a lot that could go wrong but there are also a lot of positives. All we can do is hope for the best.

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