How can I believe you again

Pick up a breakable plate, rise it up and allow it drop on the floor
Gbam gbam gbam
"Ohhhhh is broken, but you say "i will fix it" then you go ahead and glue it together with a glue.
"Will the plate be same like before?" I asked and she said replied "No"

"What if you keep repeating same process over and over" I asked again, she said "Some parts of the plate might go missing"

"Exactly" I Replied. "So do you expect me to trust you again after you betrayed me over and over again" I asked and she paused.

That was the conversation I had with my friend who decided to call me after so many months she betrayed me and I decided to avoid her because she has done it too many times.

She betrayed me

This is someone I thought that I can trust, little did I know that my informations are not safe with her and that she can betray me just for anything.

During the preparation of my traditional marriage I delegated most of the task out and people I gave the task where very happy to help me do those task, I was shocked the day I learned that she go about discouraging them, telling them so many lies that will make them hate me and leave those chores.

The worst of it was that she wasn't ready to assist in anything, she was very busy with her work and I wasn't too worried because I understand her work schedule.

One day a friend I delegated work to came around and asked me some intriguing questions like "Do you really believe that she's your friend?" And I got surprised and scared at the same time.

I have always known that humans have the tendency of betraying the trust built on them but her's became so much like a surprise to me.

So a second person came around and made similar statement, so I decided to find out what is going on, when I finally heard all she said to these people, I came back disappointed.

The unfortunate part of me is that i don't know how to keep malice, it disturbs and destructes me from being productive so I rather let it out.

Tho she admitted to her mistake and apologized but i didn't still understand the motive behind what she did, I just decided to let go, we continue our day to day life.

She never stopped.

Few days before the wedding party she betrayed me once again and I also overlooked it because i just got to focus on what is on ground which is more important than what anyone will say or do

Another of our friend who wasn't too close approached me and advised me to keep some informations away from her but I am not really that reserved person when it comes to someone i call my friend, because I believe that you can entrust your secrets in my hand and no one will hear anything from me so same way i was expecting from a So-called friend

During the first year of my marriage, disputes were setting in between me and my husband and I never knew what contributed to it until one day my husband accused me of what I have never imagined in my life, i got shocked 😲.

Husband and wife will always have a quiet moment, so during that moment I was curious to know where my husband got such information from, and he told me "your friend said a whole lot of things about you" So i asked him why he kept those things to himself, he said because he never believed them.

I didn't want to go into details of why he's using those words against me if he didn't believe them, but my focus was on why my own dear friend will do all this.

When i confronted her, this time i didn't give her the opportunity to explain, I just told her how I feel and I left the conversation.

So its months gone by and she called to say sorry, then I told her that sorry doesn't fix anything just that the glue can never fix the plate back to its usual condition.
It took me a very long time before I started trusting that I can let go of my personal life information to her, but she didn't value me.

That brought to my mind Taylor Swift song with the title "Your not sorry"

Come lets listen ti this beautiful song together.

I told her "I can't trust you anymore and we can't be same friends like before"

Have you ever been betrayed? How did you feel?

*All images are originally mine.