Am left all alone.

Sometimes, walking on a part might bring to mind some deep thinking about life, and that was exactly what happened to me on Sunday morning. When I was going home from my cleaning job, I did it on Sunday mornings for someone, I cleaned her house and she paid me some money.

A day before that day was the #spendhbd workshop I hosted that automatically drained me, and I needed a good rest, but I couldn't get that rest because if I did, I would miss the payment for that week from the cleaning job which is one of my income avenues.

While walking down to the bus stop, I got to a lonely part that was just me and a few people who were very far from me.

Some reflections came to my mind, and I started questioning myself "Why am I alone in this journey of my life?" "Why has life been so difficult despite my efforts in life?"

I remember working for over fifteen years, but I have nothing to show, I thought about my friends who we schooled together, most of them are no longer in my country. They are now financially stable, and here I am struggling to survive all alone.

From one family issue to another, from one health issue to another, so many challenges have pulled me back that I haven't been able to meet up with my age mate.

All alone.

When we were growing up, we all promised ourselves that we would be there for each other, but now just as that lonely part was that is how life has become, everyone has grown past each other while some people like us are still left behind just alone to struggle and meet up if possible, which might not be too easy.

If you take a look at that picture, a man is walking some miles away from me as I walk faster to meet with men he is not standstill he keeps moving and that makes it difficult to meet me or even cross him except if there is something that forced him to stop and stand for a while.

Same with life, most times when people are a few miles away from you financially if there is no challenge or circumstances that pins the person in a position allowing you to meet him or even cross him, he will always be ahead of you.

A whole lot came to my mind that morning as I walked through that lonely part, I felt so discouraged, disappointed, and sad, I said "Look at me, I never believed that this is where I would be by now" It became more obvious to me that no one can predict what the future holds for life.

It was a very long track that I had to walk for more than 10 minutes so it was a lot of meditation going on in my mind.

Never give up.

Life might seem like it isn't Worth the struggle, but giving up is not an option, so I opened my Spotify and spotted an uplifting track that I played till I got to the bus stop.

A part of the lyrics says "And I won't let you get me down
I'll keep gettin' up when I hit the ground
Oh, never give up, no, never give up no, no, oh
I won't let you get me down
I'll keep gettin' up when I hit the ground
Oh, never give up, no, never give up no, no, oh*lyrics

I won't let the fact that I keep falling allow me to give up, I will keep moving because life is not stagnant, life keeps moving, funny enough there are always people behind you who also envy your position, so immediately you give in to discouragement, they will overtake you, and that will never be funny at all.

As the bus I entered kept moving I also was able to see that as the bus moved the chances of overtaking other buses or cars were there but immediately he parked to drop someone other cars behind had the opportunity to overtake him, and that was a simple description of how life works, challenges, discouragements, disappointment might force us to wait a bit but as we wait people behind us will cross and they will be ahead of us.

Yes, I have been moving, tho, not on smooth ground, but I will keep on moving because I have something that money can never buy, which is life, I am alive, so I will keep on moving.

Money can never buy happiness so I should create that happy mood for myself and try my best to retain that happiness because "happiness and life are more valuable than money.

Note pictures are mine.