Why so weak?

11 months ago

"Why so weak?"

Zack punched his punching bag over and over and over again. He didn't want to stop because he felt if he did, his heart would stop racing and then it would have the opportunity to start aching. He did not want it to ache anymore so rather than that he just kept on pouring out his anger on the bag. He felt his hand ache, but he didn't stop he just kept on offloading the punches, each strike harder than the last. He wanted to scream, but he didn't have the energy to do so, also he wouldn't want to become the centre of attention, it was a public gym after all.

He was angry at himself, he already said he wouldn't let this happen to himself but now it did.

"Why so weak? Get yourself together." He kept telling himself

But it hurt too much, he wasn't as strong as he thought he was. He just kept up with the punching. At this point, there was a build up of lactic acid in his hands and it hurt so much, but he ignored it till he couldn't feel his hand anymore.

Across the room, his friend James watched from a distance and wondered why his friend who was always so lazy was so determined and fired up today. He watched closely as his friend punched over and over sweat dripping all over the floor. He didn't see anything in it until he noticed Zack start to slow down in an unusual manner. He ran over to catch his friend who was about to collapse.

He just about got there in time to stop Zack from hitting the floor. In a few moments, everyone had gathered around. Some people with some water to sprinkle on Zack. He regained consciousness and there was visible relief everywhere as the crowd started to dissipate.

Zack stood up slowly he looked around and saw so many eyes on him. He excused himself and went into the changing room. James followed him closely behind.

"What happened back there, man?" James asked

"It's nothing man, just got a bit too motivated."

"Nope, it's definitely not nothing, I have never seen you so aggressive, especially to the point of complete exhaustion. Tell me what happened."

Zack sighed

"Don't worry about it, it is nothing. I can deal with it on my own."

"Tell me." James commanded putting his hand around Zack's back

"She said she wouldn't leave." Zack let out

James started laughing and at that moment Zack regretted telling James, he really was weak.

"It is ok big man, we have all been there. You will be fine. She may come back, and if she doesn't you will heal eventually. It is painful, but don't worry you got this. Just keep going."

James pat Zack on his back and momentarily he felt better.

The pain would soon come back, but it was ok to feel pain, he was human after all.